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Conrad Murray’s Interview about his Book on Michael Jackson

August 28, 2016

This is what Conrad Murray and actor Risitas have to say about Michael Jackson (a parody). If you can’t see the subtitles please enable them by pressing “CC” – the tab at the bottom left.

This video was inspired by Risitas (actor) and Conrad Murray (so-called doctor) who was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter of Michael Jackson and sentenced to 4 years in prison. He served half the sentence and was released from jail because of overcrowding. Now he has self-published a “tell-all” book about his deceased patient.

The video is based on Murray’s narrative, kindly presented to the world by Radar Online, The Sun, The Mirror and other esteemed sources.

For more details on Murray’s story please go to Roger Friedman, the Daily Telegraph or even the Australian website that published an unforgettable piece from Murray’s tale.

Here are some of those details.

Roger Friedman:

Michael Jackson’s Killer, Dr. Conrad Murray, “Publishes” E Book And No One Buys It

August 10, 2016

Someone asked me today if the “book” written by Dr. Conrad Murray, the man who killed Michael Jackson, had been published.

I had to look on Amazon.

It does seem like Murray released his e book “This Is It! The Secret Lives of Dr. Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson” on July 26th.

The public has responded with a gigantic Yawn. “Secret Lives” is currently number 25,408 on amazon.com, on their paid Kindle chart.

I didn’t download it, and won’t pay for it. I guess hardly anyone else will, either.

If you know anyone who actually did do that, ask them to email me at showbiz411@gmail.com

It really doesn’t matter what Murray writes. He was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter. He should be in jail still, but was released because of overcrowding. His medical license has been suspended or revoked in the states where he practiced. The book will never see hardcover.

http://www.showbiz411.com/2016/08/10/michael-jacksons-killer-dr-conrad-murray-publishes-e-book-and-no-one-buys-it

The Daily Telegraph (excerpts):

Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson – what we learnt from the doctor’s terrible book

29 JULY 2016

To the majority of people who have heard of him, Dr Conrad Murray is the physician who was found responsible for the death of Michael Jackson. Murray was imprisoned for involuntary manslaughter in 2011 after it was found that the King of Pop died from a significant overdose of the anaesthetic propofol.

As of last week, however, Murray is also an author. The 63-year-old former doctor and businessman self-published This Is It! The Secret Lives of Dr Conrad Murray and Michael Jackson, his memoir and version of events as Jackson’s personal doctor ahead of the star’s ill-fated This Is It tour in 2009.

All of these are mired in several thousand words of self-aggrandising, poorly punctuated and repetitive text. We know, because we’ve read it. These are the highlights:

Jackson and Murray’s friendship was exceptional

Despite only treating Michael for the first time a few years before his death, Murray’s book follows the story of their friendship, and how the doctor was one of the few people allowed into Michael’s inner circle. According to Murray, he swiftly became Michael’s confidante, gaining his trust to be told dark truths about the singer’s troubled life that no others had heard.

Although Murray claims that he never took payment for his services from Michael, he writes animatedly about the debt Jackson and AEG owe him over his hours of service ahead of the This Is It tour. Here are some of the statements he made about his relationship with the singer: “I am 6’ 5” and in me Michael Jackson found a protective father figure (though I was not old enough to be his dad) with whom he felt utterly safe”

“I know doctor Conrad, I really love and trust you, you’re my family, you Prince Paris, Blanket and I that is my family, that’s how I see it, that’s what I want for the rest of my life, that is how it will be.”

“He speaks to me, not guarded; he’s relaxed as when on stage performing to thousands of fans.”

Murray was pretty special, right from the start

In his epilogue, Murray will maintain that the adversity he faced in later life had begun “in-utero [when] I survived the stresses of my mother’s discouragement, her broken heart and dismay”. Like founding father Alexander Hamilton, Murray was born “to an unwed mother in a small Carribbean island [and] worked his way up the ladder to become one of America’s most respected physicians”.

Here is how he explained his arrival, in third person: “The baby boy, Conrad, would grow up to one day be able to serve all of humanity… After my birth all of [his mother’s] immediate scourge and suffering would change, no one could resist baby Conrad.”

“We all have characteristics that define who we are as men and women, for me the traits that bind me in general are my selflessness and altruism. I want to serve all others, regardless of race, color, creed, adversity or socio-economic challenges.”

Murray treated Mother Theresa, but didn’t know who she was

Throughout his book, Murray tells a number of stories of altruism. One of the earliest ones is about how he saved Mother Theresa’s life by fitting her with a pacemaker. However, he simply thought she was an “underprivileged person in a foreign country”, and refused to take payment for his services:

“I loved the way I dedicated my services to her, it was totally selfless because when I agreed to serve her, I literally had no idea then that she was widely known. That was despite having been given her name and demographics by her spokesperson. Giving of myself to an unknown stranger for no compensation is why I love this memory so much, and how it came to be. I still feel the love and fulfillment in my heart. The feeling will last forever. The story highlights my willingness to help others with no preconditions, only my love, altruism, and humility, to always give unconditionally.   [Her staff asked] “Will there be a cost for your service doctor?” I answered NO!”

Murray wasn’t gay, although his classmates thought he was

“I studied a lot, was always able and prepared to fully participate in discussions during classes, always hygienically fresh and nicely clad. But above all, many young women on campus viewed me as being too soft, extremely polite, respectable, unusually gentle and probably somewhat atypical for a college young man. They concluded that I was gay…WRONG!”

Murray is a snappy dresser

Murray wants his readers to know he cuts a fine dash and knows good clothes when he sees them. Even at moments of great tension – such as, for instance, the last time he sees his son, Che, before he is sent to prison (“He was dressed in a little navy blue Nike tracksuit with white strip on the side of the trousers and sleeves of the jacket, and his gym shoes”) he won’t miss an opportunity to describe the fashion around him:

This was the outfit he put on to treat Jackson the night before he died:

“Next I jumped into an off-white linen cargo trousers and a white Ed Hardy t-shirt, after brushing my teeth and quickly combing through my short-cropped hair, I was ready to go.”

This is what walking into prison was like:

“I had to strip down from my fashionable suit and Bruno Magli shoes to a black canvas slippers, a white t-shirt and a thin synthetic lemon colored boxer shorts after spreading open my backside and every other orifice on my body for the sheriffs intake team to examine”

This was what Murray wore in medical school:

“By the end of the first full week of classes the ties, the Blazers and tweed pants, even the burgundy loafers were gone. My new garb became cut off jeans at the knees, T-shirts and gym shoes… keeping things simple, and real. I was humbled.”

Murray nearly died trying to save Jackson

While evidence presented at the California v Murray case and post-mortem findings contradict this, Murray writes that he nearly died trying to resuscitate Jackson after finding his body:

“In the process of heroically attempting to resuscitate Michael I developed for the first time in my entire existence chest pains and shortness of breath that felt like cardiac at the time I was performing CPR. I remember thinking then that I was going to die myself.

“For an instance, I sadly pondered at a point that day that we both could have been discovered dead.”

Murray has a really fancy bedroom

This is what he missed in prison:

“Thinking back I had left a beautiful spacious home, my masters bedroom alone was a good 2,000 square feet and which included his and hers vanity with high-end granite counter tops, His and hers walking and dressing closets, Jacuzzi type jetted spar tub, a master’s bedroom vestibule for private reading and relaxation, separate fire place, and climate control zone, the bedroom itself had its own large exterior Patio, over looking the 18th green on the golf course of Red-rock country club, in Las Vegas.”

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/music/news/conrad-murray-and-michael-jackson—what-we-learned-from-the-doc/

And finally here are some pieces from Murray’s tale:

My mind was made up that night.

“I’m not going to see Michael, he’ll be fine and able to sleep on his own by the time he is through with rehearsals and takes the long drive home. It will be very late and he will also be exhausted.”

The flickering of lights on the ceiling faded away until I realised I had fallen asleep when suddenly I was awakened by the ringtone of my cellphone. It showed the number of brother Michael Amir, the personal assistant of Michael Jackson. It was 12:25AM on June 25th. I cringed, then answered, “yes, what do you want?”

He said, “Mr. Jackson will finish rehearsals in the next 10 minutes and he wanted to know if you’ll be at the house when he arrives.”

I said to him, “I was not planning to be there tonight, it’s already past midnight, this is ridiculous, I’m not a machine, l too need my rest, just like he does. I didn’t come to Los Angeles for this.”

Then after thinking of Michael and his tenuous state of affairs, his future hanging by a thread, I fretfully got up from bed to go to work.

I should have followed my intuition for once. I found tonight’s request very unreasonable because of the time, after midnight, I did not sign up for this. Not to help Michael Jackson go to sleep artificially every night.

I did not need this job, I was doing well on my own until both he and AEG duped me into closing the doors to my practices for this piece of shit. I’d rather have awakened to a call from Michael that night saying, “I’m tired, I got home late, I’m going to sleep, see you in the morning”, but that would be hoping for a miracle.

He was not yet at home, when I arrived, the time was around 1:00 am.

I took a one litre bag of normal saline solution, spiked the bag of fluid with a single IV line then hung the bag of fluid on the IV pole. The bag of normal saline was prepared for IV hydration of Michael tonight following his rehearsals at the Staples Center.

When Michael danced in rehearsals or a show he could drop more than five pounds in a single session from sweating, hence the reason for mild rehydration.

After preparing the normal saline, I sat on a chair towards the left lower foot of his bed, awaiting his arrival. On the inside of the house, it was very still, the three children were asleep soundly in their rooms. Shortly after that, the tall lanky figure dressed in an orange trousers, black jacket and a black hat suddenly walked through the door. It was Michael!

The broad smile, lighting up his face, as on every other occasion he had seen me.
“Good to see you and thanks for coming.”
“You’re welcome Mike.”
“Hey Conrad, I’ll get a quick shower and come back to you, ok.”
“That will be fine.”
“Hey Conrad, have you had dinner, don’t forget I have the cook prepare a meal for you every day, and keep it in the warmer for you.”
“Yes Mike I’m aware of it, but you know I don’t like to eat so late at night.”
“I’ll have them prepare it anyway.”
“No problem Mike. So tell me Michael, how was rehearsal today?”
“I’d say it was ok, only got to about 50 per cent of my capacity. Fifty to sixty per cent seems to be all I can do.”
“What limits your performance? Are you having chest pains, shortness of breath, pains in your hip knees or feet during rehearsals?”
“No nothing like that. Conrad you think I’ll have a heart attack.”
“I can’t make that prediction Michael, but your risk for a heart attack is quite low. However, we all know nothing is impossible.”
“Yeah, I guess so! Ok, let me go and shower I’ll be right back.”

Sorry for the interruption, but the police transcript of Murray’s interview has a different version of the same conversation:

  • DETECTIVE SMITH:  And once Michael arrives, what takes place?
  • MURRAY: He,   I usually ask – he said, “Good night. Hi. How are you?”    And I said the same to him. And then he says – I said,   “How was your day? Are you fine?  What are you feeling?”   And he says, “Oh,  tired and fatigued, and I’m treated like I’m machine because of”  – he said that. “But let me just have a quick shower and change, and I’ll come back to you”.

Back to Murray’s book:

Michael was never abandoned by me and nothing that I gave him would have killed him or caused him harm.

After leaving Michael’s bedside following 35 minutes of direct monitoring I conducted multiple pieces of business in adjacent chambers within the master suite. I used my cell phone to call my offices in Las Vegas and Houston as well as to Stacey Howe, my office administrator of roughly 17 years.

I couldn’t wait to get out of the house, I said to myself. However, I intended to wait until around noon then I would wake up Michael, remove the IV normal saline from his leg, and encourage him to attend rehearsals that day.

Still having a little time to burn, I thought I’d call this girl, Sade Anding whom I befriended in Houston. She was a waitress at a pretty decent steak house. She had left me numerous messages over two weeks and I never called her back, this could be the opportunity for me to touch base with her. The call will be a short one, we never did have many extended conversations as I recalled.

I dialled Sade’s number, she came on the line within a couple of rings, we began to speak, I next wedged the phone between my right shoulder and neck, opened the strings to my beige linen trousers, pulled it down partially and started to pee. I didn’t think she would hear me taking a p*ss while she was on the phone.

After finishing I pulled up my pants tied up the strings and started my casual slow trek back towards Michael; I was still on the phone with Sade. As I walked back through the chambers and cleared the doorway between the dressing chamber and the master’s retreat, which was adjacent to the bedroom. I was getting closer to Michael now.

That is when I suddenly encountered the unexpected. Michael was laying differently on the bed, he also looked different, I picked up the pace towards him.

He was not in the same position as when I last saw him. His head was off the pillow, his body was shifted slightly down towards the foot of the bed and nearer the edge towards the right side of the bed.

He was still attached to a condom catheter, and on his right leg and slightly below the left knee he was attached to a clear bag of IV normal saline solution, that was hung from an IV pole.

The nasal prongs from his oxygen tank was off his face, and resting on the right side of his pillow on the bed, the pillow was no longer under his head as when last seen.

“Michael! Michael! Are you ok?”

Not a sound he was making, not a breath he was taking, not a single pulse, sustained or intermittent was truly discernible.

He was lifeless.

Shocked, in dismay, and disbelief, but with no timidity I began an assessment of him.

What the f**k happened here?

What did he do in my absence?

I therefore, immediately sprang into action and started cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR), immediately after confirming that he was pulseless. I started with chest compressions and an Ambu-Bag for minute ventilation.

I had to save him.

I had to save Michael.

I shortly thereafter changed from using the Ambu-Bag and attempted mouth to mouth ventilation because being a single operator it was easier to attempt resuscitation that way. Sade Anding might have heard the inaudible sounds she described as someone coughing during her sworn testimony, it could have been me, but once I found Michael in that lifeless state, my focus was all or none to help him, so I sprung into immediate action to do whatever it took to help him survive this crisis.

This battle he must win. Sade was the least of my concerns at that moment.

As I worked feverishly on Michael, I may have even placed myself in danger of having a heart attack, because I developed symptoms in the attempt to resuscitate him, but I did not quit, nor give in to my concern.

I however, kept hoping and looking towards the bedroom door that someone would show up especially after I spoke to Michael Amir and told him I had an emergency, please send security. I could have been screaming for help at the top of my voice, but from that deeply cavernous master bedroom, no one would hear me.

In the process of heroically attempting to resuscitate Michael I developed for the first time in my entire existence chest pains and shortness of breath that felt like cardiac at the time I was performing CPR. I remember thinking then that I was going to die myself.

I hopelessly stared in the vicinity of the doorway more times than I could count. Every time hoping for a miracle that someone would knock, someone would show up, but there were no knocks and no one showed up.

I also remembered staring at the black house phone on the night stand while I continued CPR, beading in perspiration, and recalling that not a single telephone land line was functional in that house. It was extremely difficult working relentlessly on Michael as a lone operator not knowing where to find help, nevertheless, I couldn’t give up on him, not unless I physiologically collapsed or my body quitted involuntarily against my volition.

I finally had no choice but to run downstairs using the back stairwell searching for help from any adult I could find, because no one came to my rescue, that’s when I had to leave Michael alone and run downstairs screaming for help. After attempting CPR unsuccessfully I’d say for at least five to seven minutes, I’m not able to give an accurate account of the loss of time to get help during the crisis.

By the time security arrived, the first one on the scene was Alberto Alvarez. Trailing immediately behind and keeping up the pace with Alberto were both Paris and Prince who ran into the room almost simultaneously with him. Paris shouted “daddy, daddy”, and broke down in tears as she pushed her way deeper into the room barely passing Alberto.

Prince was running right behind Paris, he broke his stride as he entered the room, he appeared to be in total shock. He had tears in his eyes but I don’t recall him making a sound.

Before any of them could get close to me or Michael I shouted to Alberto Alvarez, please usher the children out of the room, and not have them see their father like this. He quickly grabbed them by their arms and escorted them out of the room.

I shouted to him, “Did you call 911?”

“Not yet. I’m going to call them now.”

He took out his cell phone from the inner pocket of his jacket, and placed the call to 911. When the operator answered the phone, Alvarez was like a cripple, and stammering, he did not know a thing about his boss. He could not answer simple questions based on what he was seeing on the scene.

I had to perform CPR alone during this time, then shout the answers to the 911 operator questions to Alberto across the room so that he could transfer the information to the 911 operator.

Before I give the details of what happened in the bedroom after paramedics arrived, let me preface it with the following statement. When someone calls 911 during an emergency, except for the blasting horns of sirens and flashing lights on emergency vehicles, you just don’t know what else you’re guaranteed to get. You hope for the best.

That was the same as in Michael’s case, but had he wished or prayed for a good, not an excellent group, just a good group to appear on the scene, his prayers were definitely not answered this summer day.

And let me also say that I’ve had the honour to work with excellent paramedics and other medical personnel as a physician, but in this particular case, this was a poor example of greatness, pardon my directness.

They had no difficulty intubating Michael. But beyond that task, absolutely nothing else was done successfully for that man by paramedics, especially during the next 25 to 30 minutes following intubation. And after doing nothing except milling around aimlessly and fumbling, they wanted to pronounce him dead at the scene, based on a Los Angeles “timed protocol.”

I was furious and foaming in rage.

“What do you mean call it? You guys have not done a single thing to impress upon me that you treated him effectively since you arrived. Your attempt sucked! You lost his IV access when moving him to the floor, and you took another 20 to 25 minutes before you could replace it, then you gave him an insufficient half ass amount of medicines after 25 minutes on the scene and decided to call it a day only because you have to follow protocol.

And finally you placed an IV line in his neck and want to use this to feign off your weak clinical skills, as if you did something for him. I save lives in critical states every day, and what you’ve done today is what I consider a pathetic effort. Get UCLA ER physicians on the line for me now! I’m assuming care and responsibility to take him to the nearest tertiary medical care centre with your help to transport him!”

The ER physician at UCLA agreed to relinquish and transferred care to me, I said to her prepare for us we are on our way to you.

The battle to keep him alive was far from over, to give him a fair chance of survival, and to save him just got more intense. I was not going to allow Michael to receive less than the maximum heroic measures, if it meant there was a chance for his survival, I was going to make sure, he got that chance. I was not ready to give up nonchalantly, nor to lose him, not this way. I wanted him to be around for his children.

After giving him more bicarbonate, epinephrine and atropine, chest compressions continued, he was still pulseless as when I first found him. He was transferred from his bedroom to the ambulance that was parked in the front yard. As we descended the stairs with him on the gurney, I followed last in line but immediately behind, keeping it all in sight.

I remembered on the last descent of stairs I looked towards my left side, towards the black grand piano and saw the children standing holding their nanny, their arms was bracing some part of her garment, and her arms holding them all.

The mood in the house was totally sombre. Anguish filled the air, a sight not to be forgotten.

I still couldn’t believe it might be the last time he would be leaving that residence and might not be coming back, the fate of which was also the same for me, I’ve never been back to that home, and have no desire to do so.

Isn’t this Egomaniac so delusional that he needs a doctor himself?

32 Comments leave one →
  1. November 27, 2016 8:22 pm

    Oh,so Molther Theresa came all the way to US ?Las Vegas?? to find Conrad Murray to have a pacemaker fitted. He is outright delusional.

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  2. Talia Gifty permalink
    November 17, 2016 5:15 pm

    Thank you so much. I agree with you. There shouldn’t even be an article written about this woman. These cases are just going way over the top. I can’t wait till all of it is over. And these accusers are all proven to be liars. God will work all of this out soon.

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  3. November 17, 2016 2:33 pm

    Is there by any chance you can do an article on this jane doe woman next

    If only a very short one. All these scumbags don’t deserve any attention and the more attention they attract the better it is for them.

    However I’m pleased that in a frantic attempt to find some other “victims” they came up with a girl. It ruins all their previous stories about MJ being a “boy-lover”. Gutierrez insisted it was only boys, Sneddon and Diane Dimond said the same, as well as all other MJ’s haters – and now all of a sudden this girl overthrows all their elaborate tales.

    Finaldi clearly overdid it this time.

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  4. Talia Gifty permalink
    November 15, 2016 5:29 pm

    Is there by any chance you can do an article on this jane doe woman next

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  5. October 9, 2016 6:38 pm

    Helena, I have missed you.Now it was impossible to get a post after that silly something about some infection – somebody trying to mess with this blog. I hope it is not just my computer. And thank you for the detailed and complete description about what evil happens i H-wood.This post is in the wrong place but I could not get an open post after the las one in orange red,What was that anyway?All the best to you.

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  6. September 9, 2016 1:14 pm

    Thank you for this post. I have always enjoyed reading your blog, Helena.

    The first time I heard Conrad Murray was writing a book, I instantly thought it was a hoax. I wonder why this man is writing about something that happened over 7 years ago and has been told countless times before.

    The things he is writing about sound fabricated and out of wack to what his relationship with Michael was really like. He just seems like he is desperate for money and knows he isn’t relevant anymore.

    I have always wanted to know, that for someone who claims to have had such a close friendship with Michael, why is there no pictures of them together?

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  7. September 7, 2016 9:31 am

    I think that everyone pretty much can guess where his money comes from these days.
    All in all a travesty of justice.

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  8. August 31, 2016 5:44 pm

    “I have Murray’s Appeal decision and as expected it was turned down. Murray purchased in the last 60 days of Michael’s life 15.5 liters of Propofol. There was never any stock piled propofol found anywhere so it was all used in increasing doses. Over 60 days Murray infused 155,555 mg of propofol to Michael which was an average daily dose of 2583 mg per night. Per night.” – lynande51

    Lynande51, it seems to me that Murray couldn’t use all of it – he was planning to move to London soon and had to have some of it in stock. So most probably Murray destroyed the balance while the police were not even looking for it. You remember that Murray was unavailable to the police for a day or two after Michael’s death and then mentioned propofol to them thinking that the police already knew about it. And was very surprised that they didn’t. So he had plenty of time for getting rid of those vials.

    However the fact that he was infusing Michael with massive doses of propofol is absolutely not disputed. The amount of propofol found in Michael’s body and urine the night he died is the best proof of it.

    “I bought the book and read it. The man is a sociopath that can only think of himself as “Poor Conrad Murray”.If I ever entertained the idea that there was someone else behind the death of Michael Jackson they were completely wiped away by this book because if he could have said that someone else did it he would have.”

    Good that you’ve read it and can tell us more details. But are you sure that if someone else had been in that room he would have named the person(s)? Murray is heavily dependent on his sponsors who are evidently supporting him at the moment. He claims that he has two luxury flats – in Florida and in California. This can easily be a lie, but if true and considering that he is not working, isn’t it a bit strange that he is living in luxury though he has no source of income and is still in debt?

    A quote from the Daily Mirror:

    “But how Murray supports his luxury lifestyle – splitting his time between homes in Southern California and Florida – remains somewhat unclear.
    In Florida, Murray lives in an elegant two-bedroom condo, surrounded by lakes and swaying palm trees, 20 minutes from the coast and about an hour north of Miami.
    Speaking in a quiet corner of the lobby of the 26-storey, two tower, luxury apartment building, Murray says: “I have not earned any money since being released from jail. A lot of people have helped me. I have been propped up by my family and friends. They are helping me until I can work and make a living for myself again. I have no income. I get by with their help and love.”

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  9. August 31, 2016 4:28 pm

    “I hate what he’s doing to Michael’s children,when he talks about those girls that there only a couple of years older than Paris,and he says he loves the children,and plus Michael’s medical issues.This is a betrayal to Michael” – Des

    Des, I also hate what he is doing to Michael’s children. And what he did to Michael in the first place – through his greed, negligence and ignorance he actually killed him.

    But judging by his book Murray is a far worse case than we thought him to be – he is so deep a sociopath that is really bordering on a mental case.

    My only big surprise is that no one has yet noticed it. There were so many people around him and no one noticed that he is nearly insane? The things he keeps saying are indeed bordering on delirium! Or did he have so nice ways and confident a manner that he was able to fool everyone, including AEG Live, Kenny Ortega and Michael Jackson?

    As to his tales about “girls”, if Murray is unable to realize his own guilt of killing a human being, how can we expect him to understand what Michael meant when he talked about girls (IF he talked about them at all)?

    What I mean is that now that Murray published his book he has opened up to us from a different angle. Previously we could only suspect that he is not quite all there, but now we can be almost sure of it.

    Indeed, how can anyone in his right mind complain that there was no telephone land line in the house while all the time he had a cell phone in his pocket?

    And how can a doctor claim that “he didn’t know where to get help”? If he had called 911 the paramedics would have been there in 4 minutes. Instead he “attempted CPR unsuccessfully for at least 5 or 7 minutes”, “hopelessly stared in the vicinity of the doorway more times than he could count, every time hoping for a miracle that someone would knock, someone would show up, but there were no knocks and no one showed up” (quote). Then he ran down the stairs “to get help” and it was only when Alvarez arrived did the bodyguard call 911 from his cell phone.

    Who needs all this dramatization if even non-doctors know that after approximately 10 minutes of no blood-flow the brain cells stop functioning and are dead? And what’s the point of these false complaints about the poor performance of the paramedics and doctors in the hospital if all those efforts to resuscitate Michael hours after he died – even if successful – would have resulted only in him being a vegetable for the rest of his life? Murray as a doctor should have known it better than anyone else.

    Instead he is feeding to us the idea of his “heroic” efforts while the actions he himself describes show him to be an aggressive liar, a complete ignoramus and a terrible fool.

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  10. Des permalink
    August 30, 2016 7:58 pm

    Dear Helena it’s nice to hear from you again i wish you well.Now to me I have seen a lot of his interviews and I hate what he’s doing to Michael’s children,when he talks about those girls that there only a couple of years older than Paris,and he says he loves the children,and plus Michael’s medical issues.This is a betrayal to Michael and every human being.We always been encouraged by everyone to talked and trust our doctors with our body and our soul especially these days that a lot of people suffer from depression and this man he calls himself a doctor! This is another prove that Michael wasn’t paranoid when it comes to trusting people,too many people betrayed him,even by having a innocent conversation and just joking around their making a story out of it.He even said that Paris use to put the bleaching cream on Michael,so what if she did.My grandchildren love putting suntan lotion on me .For me it’s very upsetting that his not here now with his kids been older to get this unconditional love from them especially from his daughter,usually fathers and daughters their have a special bond.If this man actually came out and said the truth from the start maybe I say maybe Michael’s fans sympathised with him, but ones again the things that people do for money.LOVE&PEACH

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  11. Mado permalink
    August 30, 2016 5:03 pm

    Lunatic! He should be in jail for life! Thank you dear Helena. ❤

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  12. August 30, 2016 4:36 pm

    The current bitchy, vicious, ravenous, predatory, gossip-mongering, tabloidist outlets — if left unsatisfied — will rip him to pieces and leave the remains exposed for the scavengers. – Judith Mason

    Judith, those few remaining media outlets that can still be considered quality press are already writing about Murray’s book with thinly veiled sarcasm (see the review by The Daily Telegraph in this post). As to tabloids they cannot go back on their earlier glorious reports on Murray or at least make so quick a U-turn, and that is why they are keeping silent at the moment.

    However it may very well change and they may indeed start ripping Murray apart, only not for his lies about the way he treated his patient, but for their own heavy disappointment with Murray and the fact that he said NO to that burning question about “boys” which was the only point they were really interested in.

    And he did say NO, because even in his conversation with Radar Online about those “small girls” (though one was 15 and the other was 19) he said that “this was the closest Michael ever came to answering his own [presumably] unasked questions about the pedophilia allegations that had haunted him for years.”

    However if that tale about the girls was the worst Murray can come up with – though he had full access to Michael when he was under sedation and completely off his guard – it means that there was NOTHING ELSE.

    And this in its turn answers all questions about those earlier allegations about Michael – about Jordan Chandler’s case (a lie), about Jason Francia’s case (another lie) and about Robson and Safechuck (the most horrid lies of all as they would be difficult to verify if it were not for Murray).

    The NO answer they got from Murray is actually the reason why tabloids feel so intimidated now.

    As to MJ’s fans I don’t understand why they can’t see their lucky chance here. Despite Murray’s enormous ego and ignorance when it comes to the major issue of refuting all those previous allegations about Michael his words may be a help.

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  13. August 30, 2016 3:07 pm

    “Could it be possible that he doesn’t realize the madness of his justifications, recriminations and the positioning of himself as a hero who almost died during his “rescue attempts” for his victim?” – Susannerb

    Susannerb, I’m afraid Murray really doesn’t understand how crazy his justifications look. His ego is so big that he is simply unable to see another point of view. In 2011 Tanya Young Williams quoted Murray’s friend saying that he is so arrogant that no one can tell him anything – he evidently listens to himself only:

    “A long-time friend and supporter of Conrad Murray, who spoke with me outside of the courthouse on more that one occasion, shared a glimpse of the real Conrad Murray with me. He stated, “Conrad is arrogant and nobody can tell him anything. He is my friend but blaming Michael for killing himself is crazy.http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tanya-young-williams/michael-jackson-trial-dr-conrad-murray_b_1076587.html

    These writings of this madman look like a complete satire. It’s more to laugh than to cry, and I personally believe that Murray is digging himself deeper and deeper into a hole which will bury him.

    That’s right. He managed to write a book which that is making fun of his own self. This is why I used that laughing man Risitas (playing a moron) for making that “interview” based on Murray’s writings. In my opinion the idiotic picture on the screen and Murray’s words are a perfect match for each other.

    However now that Murray’s personality and fate are more or less clear to us, it is time we questioned the media about this book. They were promoting it so hard and were so sympathetic to Murray, so what will they say now that they saw him the egomaniac and sociopath he really is? Why are they keeping silent and averting their eyes? Feeling uncomfortable?

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  14. Mjlima permalink
    August 30, 2016 9:27 am

    Please guys don’t buy the book don’t read it just ignore this “person” I have no name for him
    God will take of him.

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  15. Trina permalink
    August 30, 2016 4:51 am

    Btw Helena, I really enjoy reading your posts and like all the rest, I’m certain this one will be excellent as well and cannot wait to delve into it. Thank you so much for showing the world that there are SANE MJ fans out there who are grounded in logic and reality.

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  16. Trina permalink
    August 30, 2016 4:48 am

    I have not finished reading the post yet, but I needed to comment that the fact that there is a conrad murray to begin with (and attempting to profit from MJ’s death) who was convicted and served time in prison should be enough to show that MJ passed on. Yet there seems to be a growing base on the silly Internet that keeps screaming he’s alive. From sleeping in a chamber (a lie), to “wanting to be white” (a lie), to “molesting” boys (definite lie) to now being some sort of mad scientist who “faked his own death”….when WILL we EVER let this man rest in peace!?

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  17. susannerb permalink*
    August 30, 2016 4:01 am

    I couldn’t believe what I read and first wasn’t sure if the quotes from the CM book were some kind of ironic derision written by somebody else.
    This lunatic honestly wrote „no one came to MY RESCUE“, while his victim lay there dying? From these short pieces, the content of his book seems to confirm a hundredfold what a narcissistic and sociopathic personality Murray is. I never heard of a more egomaniac person who blames everybody else, from Michael to Alberto Alvarez to the paramedics and the whole world for the terrible things that happened to HIMSELF (and not to MJ) during his job he was “duped into”.
    He talks almost in one sentence about his cell phone he used to call Sade and that he at the same time couldn’t use a phone to call for help. Could it be possible that he doesn’t realize the madness of his justifications, recriminations and the positioning of himself as a hero who almost died during his “rescue attempts” for his victim? When did this man lose his mind – already before he “treated” and killed Michael Jackson? Or after he had committed his crime and tried to hide it?

    These writings of this madman look like a complete satire. It’s more to laugh than to cry, and I personally believe that Murray is digging himself deeper and deeper into a hole which will bury him.

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  18. August 30, 2016 3:37 am

    Thank you again, Helena,for bringing to us this piece of Murrays writing and mind.He shows a total lack of judgement , insight and reveals his own psychopathology and lack of writing skills.It is a further evidence for denying him a license to ever practice medicine again..

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  19. Judith Mason permalink
    August 29, 2016 7:16 pm

    Yes, Murray played the media big time by insinuating that Michael allegedly answered point blank to him (Murray) the burning question, “Are you a pedophile?” As we know, that is ALL the media was interested in. Yet, Murray has (to date) frustrated the media by not delivering that so-called answer.

    Whatever excuses Murray made for Michael Jackson’s death do not mitigate the plain facts that he administered Propofol to his patient in a non-hospital setting WITHOUT required back up staff and the proper equipment required for constant monitoring; he left his sedated patient ALONE and helpless; he failed to call 911 IMMEDIATELY thereby delaying the arrival of professional first responders; he improperly administered CPR on the bed rather than the floor.

    Michael Jackson was dead long before the paramedics arrived, Murray got terrified — his life imploding before his eyes as the only person left standing responsible for Jackson’s health. He furiously went through the motions and acting the part of heroically trying to save the man he knew to be dead..

    Since there were no witnesses, Murray thus invented a proposterous (and constantly evolving) tale of operatic proportions with himself as the hero instead of the villian.

    News media has long since foresworn its ethical and professional obligations to inform the public via factual reporting. Yet, the ash heap of what remains of a once robust and trustworthy media may yet be the final resting place for Murray. The current bitchy, vicious, ravenous, predatory, gossip-mongering, tabloidist outlets — if left unsatisfied — will rip him to pieces and leave the remains exposed for the scavengers.

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  20. Rapunzal388 permalink
    August 29, 2016 7:14 pm

    Hi, Helena. I’m Rapunzal388 again! This is my last reminder so don’t worry.
    I’m one of the loyal readers of your blog. I like the way you promote truth and justice.
    You’ve inspired me so much that I created my own blog and I call it:

    truthhealstheworld.blogspot.com

    Sounds familiar, isn’t it? Please visit and make sure you read all my posts especially “The Childlike Spirit is the Divine Truth!” and “Submission to God’s Will” and many more! It’s all about the truth. Let’s embrace the truth and forget about everything else cos truth heals the world. I also have your blog in my favourite blog list.

    Please tell your friends David Edwards, Lynande and others about my blog. Thank you!

    P. S.: I post new content only on Fridays, the spiritual day.

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  21. August 29, 2016 5:32 pm

    “Sorry I didn’t watch it. I’ll watch it now though Thanks” – mjsangel

    MJsangel, you are welcome. For some reason the subtitles disappeared for a time being, but I’ve just restored them. In case someone removes them again, please go to “Settings”, choose “Subtitles” and click “On”.

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  22. August 29, 2016 4:10 pm

    Vindicatemj (Helena) , Sorry I didn’t watch it, I’ll watch it now though Thanks

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  23. August 29, 2016 4:41 am

    “I don’t know whether to be angry or laugh my head off.” – Judith Mason

    Judith, I haven’t read the book but judging by some excerpts Murray showed himself so big an idiot that I didn’t know either whether to be angry or laugh. His narcissism is simply incredible and knows no bounds.

    He presents himself as a “hero” and doesn’t realize how absurd it sounds:

    In the process of heroically attempting to resuscitate Michael I developed for the first time in my entire existence chest pains and shortness of breath that felt like cardiac at the time I was performing CPR. I remember thinking then that I was going to die myself.

    Besides being an egomaniac in its supreme form and a textbook example of a pathological personality, he also shows himself to be a complete ignoramus – a classic case of an arrogant fool who doesn’t even know how much he doesn’t know.

    And besides his ability to misinterpret everything (for example, Michael’s conversations about girls) he really doesn’t understand what things can be said in public and what can’t. Take his story about peeing when talking on the phone with a girlfriend, for example. Not only does he mention it, but he also describes the process in minute detail:

    I dialled Sade’s number, she came on the line within a couple of rings, we began to speak, I next wedged the phone between my right shoulder and neck, opened the strings to my beige linen trousers, pulled it down partially and started to pee. I didn’t think she would hear me taking a p*ss while she was on the phone.
    After finishing I pulled up my pants tied up the strings and started my casual slow trek back towards Michael; I was still on the phone with Sade.

    But who deserves the biggest laughs of all is the media. At first they were extremely enthusiastic about the book and now a sudden hush has fallen over all of them. This is because they realized what a trap they had fallen into. They craved for sensations, and the book IS a sensation, only not the way they expected it.

    They were seeking some “dark secrets” but instead are facing a sheer disaster. The book has become a great illustration of Murray’s incompetence and narcissism bordering on madness. And the biggest disappointment of it all is that there were no revelations about “boys” – despite Murray’s obvious attempts to record Michael when he was under sedation.

    In fact even this conman Murray had to admit that Michael was a good man.

    “The book is very honest, and the book is very crude presentation of life and what we experienced together. There’s no doubt that I have been damaged, definitely. Will I ever get over this? No, how could I forget this, I’ll never forget this in my life. I will tell you, regretfully, if I could live my life again, I wouldn’t do it, I wouldn’t work with him. Michael Jackson is a good man, but no.”
    http://www.itsthevibe.com/conrad-murray-would-refuse-michael-jackson-job-if-offered-again/

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  24. August 29, 2016 3:51 am

    “Not buying the book. I’m celebrating Michael’s birthday by listening to his music and attending a birthday celebration at a popular venue in D.C.” – JT Harris

    JT Harris, none of us are going to buy the book of course. But Risitas’s infectiuous laugh (Risitas is the actor in this video) is also a great way to celebrate Michael’s birthday, in my opinion. Murray is so crazy that the most he deserves is a laugh.

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  25. August 29, 2016 3:39 am

    “Please don’t watch this vid or interview itself, Don’t give him any clicks.” – mjsangel

    Dear me, this is a parody.I thought you would realize it by the face of the actor. Though I must admit that I used Murray’s own words almost verbatim.

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  26. August 29, 2016 12:58 am

    He did lynande51, Everyone else including MJ, Everyone but himself.
    I wouldn’t waste my money or time on him, he’s a cold blooded killer.
    And SHOULD NOT profit for his crimes Murder and lies.

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  27. lynande51 permalink
    August 28, 2016 7:54 pm

    I have Murray’s Appeal decision and as expected it was turned down. Murray purchased in the last 60 days of Michael’s life 15.5 liters of Propofol. In drugs a liquid is dispensed in a parts per measure solution. The measure was milliliters and the parts/Propofol was 10 mg per ml. There was never any stock piled propofol found anywhere so it was all used in increasing doses. Over 60 days Murray infused 155,555 mg of propofol to Michael which was an average daily dose of 2583 mg per night. Per night.
    I bought the book and read it. Not only does Murray make himself out to be a saint and a victim he calls himself the hero of that day. He berates the Paramedics that really did try to save Michael, His security, the ER Doctors and specialists that were called in. He says that they were the ones that lost Michael.
    He hates David Walgren, Walgren’s wife and even his own lawyers and their wives and of course Judge Pastor and the jury.
    The man is a sociopath that can only think of himself as “Poor Conrad Murray”.If I ever entertained the idea that there was someone else behind the death of Michael Jackson they were completely wiped away by this book because if he could have said that someone else did it he would have.

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  28. Judith Mason permalink
    August 28, 2016 7:41 pm

    I don’t know whether to be angry or laugh my head off.

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  29. JT Harris permalink
    August 28, 2016 7:29 pm

    Not buying the book. Not listening to the interview. Tomorrow, I’m celebrating Michael’s birthday by listening to his music and attending a birthday celebration at a popular venue in D.C. Happy BIrthday, Mike!

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  30. August 28, 2016 7:19 pm

    Please don’t watch this vid or interview itself, Don’t give him any clicks.
    He don’t deserve any just like his book isn’t selling, don’t give his interview any clicks.

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  31. August 28, 2016 4:48 pm

    “I wonder how he explains away the 40 gallons of propofol in the instrument’s condo.” – corlista1

    Oh, we can wonder about a million other things. For example, how Murray explains that a high concentration of propofol was found in the jug with urine by Michael’s bed that was filled at 7 o’clock in the morning, according to Murray’s own account.

    If he gave him a small injection of propofol late in the morning, how come propofol was found in the jug filled at 7 am?

    This man is a complete lunatic. The only thing I like about his revelations is that despite his ardent desire to damage Michael’s reputation he still could not bring himself to lie about “boys”. He said that those tales about Harriet and Emma Watson were “the closest Michael ever came to answering my own unasked questions about the pedophilia allegations that had haunted him for years”. http://radaronline.com/celebrity-news/michael-jackson-tell-all-dr-conrad-murray-book-emma-watson-sex-escorts/

    So even if he changes his mind now, he will be unable to lie that he heard anything from MJ about “boys” during those sedation sessions and recordings of Michael’s spontaneous speeches when he was falling asleep.

    And you can be perfectly sure that he did ask those questions – only the result was zero and disappointing to Murray.

    As to Harriet and Emma Watson, Murray’s narrative is a classic example of making a mountain out of a molehill. If they ever discussed any girls at all, those conversations could be not earlier than in 2009 (when Murray really spent much time with MJ) as before that they met rarely and mostly for treatment of Michael’s children.

    However in 2009 Harriet was already 15 and Emma Watson was 19. Murray simply tried to squeeze a small sensation out of the very little dirt he imagined he had about Michael.

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  32. corlista1 permalink
    August 28, 2016 4:09 pm

    Everyone was at fault but him. I wonder how he explains away the 40 gallons of propofol in the instrument’s condo. His arrogance, conceit and completely delusional fabrications are almost incomprehensible. What a pathetic excuse for a human being.

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