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This is a place for issues not related to Michael Jackson’s vindication.

Some of them are my answers to questions raised here again and again even despite my will, some have to do with the problems raging within the blog several years ago, and the latest issue is my country’s sudden hostility towards Ukraine with which I totally disagree and think it necessary to express my opinion about, same as some processes taking place in my country now.

All these points had to be grouped together in this page, so anyone who wants to challenge me on these or other issues can do it on this page without damaging the rest of the blog.

December 7, 2015

This day marks the first fully ANTICONSTITUTIONAL verdict in Russia – a 3 year sentence to one of its citizens for peaceful expression of his political views. People may not have understood it yet, but it is an open overturn of our constitutional rights and the official establishment of a police junta in Russia.

Russian court sentences Ildar Dadin to 3 years under new anti-protest law

08.12.15 | Halya Coynash

   Ildar Dadin calling for the release of Nadiya Savchenko

The first sentence passed under a draconian anti-protest law in Russia has proved even more repressive than demanded by the prosecutor.  Judge Natalya Dudar from Moscow’s notorious Basmanny Court has sentenced civic activist Ildar Dadin to three years imprisonment against the two years demanded.  Dadin is well-known to Ukrainians for his active support for Euromaidan, which is likely to have contributed to this appalling sentence.  It is also probably part of a mounting crackdown on peaceful opposition to the current regime.

In his final address to the court on Monday morning, Dadin stressed that he was not asking for anything, but simply defending his constitutional rights.  He demanded that the court observe Russia’s Constitution and terminate this shameful prosecution.

A new Article 212.1 of the Russian Criminal Code was introduced in July 2014.  This allows for hefty fines or even 30-day terms of imprisonment on administrative charges.  Most worryingly it envisages criminal prosecution for totally peaceful protest. This, as Ildar Dadin rightly pointed out and the judge ignored, is guaranteed under the Constitution.  

Article 212.1 envisages a sentence of up to 5 years if a court has issued three rulings on administrative offences within 180 days.  He was accused of taking part in protests on Aug 6, Aug 23, Sept 13 and Dec 5 2014.  It is quite standard in today’s Russia for police to detain people at entirely peaceful protests, with administrative protocols then drawn up and processed by the courts with no questions asked.   It is also customary, and clearly happened in Dadin’s case, for the police to use provocateurs who walk up to a person holding a single-person picket and either cause trouble, or simply wait until the police react to what is no longer one solitary individuals. 

Three activists were arrested in January this year – on Jan 16 – 75-year-old pensioner Vladimir Ionov, whose sentence is due any day and Mark Galperin, and then on Jan 30 Dadin, who was placed under house arrest.  Each was charged with having committed four ‘infringements’ of the rules on holding and organizing public events in the space of 180 days.

Memorial HRC declared Ildar Dadin to be a political prisoner, and called the prosecution of Ionov and Galperin politically motivated.  It stated on Feb 4 that the new legislation destroys freedom of peaceful assembly in Russia.

Article 212.1 breaches Russia’s Constitution and legislation, as well as international law for a number of reasons.  It imposes double punishment for the same actions, first via administrative legislation, then criminal. The criminal charges can carry a term of imprisonment of from 3 to 5 years despite the fact that the supposed ‘offences’ are of a formal nature and do not present any danger to the public.

The use of provocateurs was standard in Soviet times, so too were prison sentences for expressing ones views.

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Amnesty International:

“Russia’s jailing of a peaceful opposition activist for violating the country’s new law on public assemblies is a shocking and cynical attack on freedom of expression, Amnesty International said today.

“This cynical move shows that compared to the drawn out criminal proceedings against peaceful protesters in the past, the authorities have now created a shortcut for imprisoning activists. It is more dangerous to be a peaceful activist in Russia than at any time in recent years.”

“It is deeply disturbing that the Russian authorities have ‘legalized’ their own human rights violations and are now actively putting this into practice,” said John Dalhuisen.

“Ildar Dadin must be immediately and unconditionally released and Russia must repeal this repressive and unjust law.”

https://www.amnesty.org/en/latest/news/2015/12/russia-peaceful-activist-sentenced-under-repressive-new-law-must-be-released/

Here is the scene of the verdict – people are shouting “SHAME!”

February 28, 2015

THEY KILLED BORIS NEMTSOV

Boris Nemtsov shot dead: Kremlin security cameras failed to capture killing of Putin opponent

No witnesses to assassination but precision of hit ‘suggests government involvement’
  • Allison Quinn
  • Tuesday 3 March 2015

Dozens of security cameras monitor the streets that surround the Kremlin. None, it emerged today, were looking in the right place when four bullets were fired at Russian opposition leader Boris Nemtsov. And the only witness to the murder, his Ukrainian girlfriend Anna Duritskaya, saw nothing.

Four days after the killing which triggered mass protests over the weekend, the identity, motive and means by which the person, or persons, pulled the trigger on Friday night remain no clearer. Indeed, after a second day of formal interviews in the investigation into the attack, the circumstances of the killing remain shrouded in mystery.

Ms Duritskaya, the Ukrainian model who was with Mr Nemtsov on the Great Moskvoretsky Bridge where he was murdered as they walked back from dinner, said in her first interview that the killer shot the former deputy prime minister from behind before jumping into a passing vehicle. She did not see his face and could not remember the make or model of the getaway car.

Lamenting the fact that investigators had questioned her for three days and had not allowed her to return to Ukraine, Ms Duritskaya, 23, told Dozhd TV: “I’ve already fulfilled everything they wanted for the investigation. I don’t understand what else I can do here, and why they won’t let me leave.”

According to a report by Kommersant published today, investigators now believe the murder was not carried out by a professional. Andrei Soldatov, an expert on Russia’s security services, scoffed at the notion that the crime could have been committed by vigilantes, however, calling the latest theory “a funny one”.

He told The Independent: “They are just putting this out there to the press to deflect suspicion from the government. They want us to think it was done by some rogue element, and that will be the line taken by the investigation.”

The idea of violent fanatics being behind the murder has been difficult to swallow for many former colleagues of Mr Nemtsov. Vladimir Milov, an opposition politician, continued to blame the security services. Noting that the precision of the attack may have required audio surveillance, Mr Milov asked: “Who has the authority and capabilities to conduct audio surveillance on mobile phones in the area of Red Square?

The Federal Guard Service, which controls the area around the Kremlin, has said none of its surveillance cameras were pointed at the bridge to capture the killing, with spokesman Sergei Devyatov telling the Govorit Moskva radio station that the area “is not part of the zone of responsibility” of the agency. And the city’s Department of Information Technologies, in charge of the surveillance cameras in pedestrian areas, also claimed to have no footage, passing responsibility back on to the Federal Guard Service in comments to RIA Novosti.

With no eyewitness testimony, a flurry of reports in Russian media has further muddied the waters of the already Kafkaesque investigation – which is officially examining several different motives, from Islamic extremism to neo-Nazi radicals to a business dispute.With no access to the footage and no eyewitness testimony, Mr Soldatov said it was unlikely the “real mastermind” would ever be known. He agreed with Mr Milov’s theory of involvement by the security services, but stopped short of pinning any blame on President Vladimir Putin.

Russian investigators have offered a three million rouble reward (£32,000) for information. Mr Putin’s spokesman has described the killing as a “cruel murder” with “all the makings of a contract hit”.

“I don’t believe that Putin organised this – given the professionalism of the attack, I think the more plausible theory is that people in the security services are involved,” Mr Soldatov said. “And that it was meant to push Putin in some direction or another.”

Mr Nemtsov will be buried tomorrow.

June 3, 2014

BEGINNING WITH AUGUST 1, 2014 RUSSIA’S SECURITY SERVICE WILL GET ACCESS TO PASSWORDS AND LOGINS OF USERS.

“Beginning with August this year Russian internet companies will pass to FSB, Federal Security Service (former KGB) user information, including user names, passwords and information about the user’s activity in the account.

This is reported by “Vedomosti” with a reference to the members of the working group at the Russian Ministry of Communications.

According to Vedomosti, on August 1 Russia will start operating the so-called anti-terrorist package of amendments to the legislation.

The new standards will require Internet companies to store data about its users for half a year and present it on first demand to the authorities involved in investigation activities.

The type of information to be provided by Internet companies is specified in the FSB regulations. It turns out that law enforcement agencies need almost all information about the users’ actions on the web.

This includes the user’s name (login), email addresses, the list of all contacts, categories of contacts (friends, subscribers), the number and volume of messages received and sent by user, all changes in the account and attempts to remove information from it.

Users will have to share with the security service when and which social networks, forums, blog hosting services they visited.

The state is interested even in the devices used for accessing the Internet, programs and DNS servers.

The Russian security services decided that they also need access to the data on paid services used for purchases from Internet companies, including the amount pad and name of the payment system. This regulation will not apply to selling products over the Internet.

But internet companies are not obliged to store and share the content of the correspondence, posts, comments and other users’ messages.

The new rules will first and foremost apply to social networks such as Facebook and Twitter, as well as blog hosting services and forums. The new rules will not apply to the educational, scientific and cultural resources.”

http://www.pravda.com.ua/rus/news/2014/06/3/7027855/

 

May 9, 2014

SAYING OF THE DAY:

Cheburasha and national browserThe autonomous computer network called ‘Cheburashka’ will be best accompanied by the sovereign internet browser called ‘Goolag’. 

GOOLAG. WE WILL FIND EVERYONE.

 

May 8, 2014

PHOTO OF THE DAY:

A collage of Mr. Obama with Ukrainian politicians behind his back – all of them with a swastika on their arms.

Обама в нацистской форме -РИА Новости

BORIS NEMTSOV said about it:

“On the eve of Victory Day the pro-Putin RIA Novosti news agency released a collage showing Mr. Obama in a nazi uniform.

Is Kiselev [head of the news agency] commemorating the role of the USA in the anti-Hitler coalition this way?

Is he an imbecile or what?”

 

мы - один народ, а правительства - другойSAYING OF THE DAY: 

“We – Russians, Ukrainians and Belorussians are one nation. And our governments are a different one.”

May 7, 2014

PETITION:

Big brother is watchingA petition against the draft of a Government Resolution prepared by the Russian Ministry of Education stipulating a requirement for the administration of schools and universities to monitor the activity of pupils, students, teachers and lecturers in social networks and on opposition websites.

The wording of the draft resolution is uncertain, and the powers given to the administrations of schools and universities are closer to those of the Federal Security Service than those of educational institutions.

The Petition is called “Russian Ministry of Education, give up your draft law about spying on pupils, students and teachers.”

Those willing can sign the petition here: http://u.to/9gRYBw 

 

PHOTO OF THE DAY:

They have renewed their banner on the House of Books in the center of Moscow. Now it says: “Aliens are among us. They support the junta in Ukraine”.

Then they show a picture of burned victims in Odessa and ask: “What will they say now?” 

пятая колонна на Доме книги 6 мая 2014 - снова вывесили

I don’t know what they will say, but I will say that it was a huge provocation and it still remains to be seen who arranged it.

May 6, 2014

What happened two years ago, on May 6, 2012 at a peace rally in Moscow?

Sergey Udaltsov (now under trial for alleged organization of mass riots in Bolotnaya square) speaks about the 2nd ANNIVERSARY OF MAY 6th EVENTS and DOUBLE STANDARDS of our authorities:

  • “May 6th marks two years since the events in Moscow Bolotnaya square, which served as a basis for the main political trial of today – Bolotnaya case. Now, on the background of what is happening in Ukraine, when we see on TV screens mass riots, burned and destroyed buildings, people killed and mutilated, it becomes a hundred percent clear that in Bolotnaya square on May 6, 2012 there was nothing even remotely similar to it. However, to fit the political interests of Russian authorities, the prosecution and court have been stretching the truth for two years now taking a great effort to make the Bolotnaya case fit article 212 of the Criminal Code and portray the participants of a peaceful rally as a monstrous mob…”

Samples of Russian democracy:

Yaroslav Belousov, 23, student of Moscow State University

THE SENTENCE is 2 years and 6 months in prison

THE PROSECUTION: “He threw a yellow spherical object, looking like a billiard ball. It hit the chest of riot policeman Filippov, as a result of which he developed a bruise.”

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED:
• Belousov threw a lemon.
• The lemon fell on the asphalt. The panoramic video shows that by the time the lemon was thrown Fillippov (policeman) had left the square, and his back was turned to Belousov (student).
• Filippov was wearing a flak jacket, covering his chest.
• The list of injuries sustained by Filippov does not include a bruise in the upper chest, He recalled it only after Belousov’s detention. This was the first time he recalled a “billiard ball” and gave the description of Belousov whom he had seen very well though he was standing with his back to him.

 

Andrey Barabanov, 23 years old, artist

THE SENTENCE is 3 years and 7 months in prison

THE PROSECUTION: “He struck by his hand the riot policeman Kruglov who was lying on the ground”.

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED: The victim Kruglov said, both at the trial and during investigation that he dodged the blows, did not feel any pain and couldn’t feel it as he was in a flak jacket. No harm was caused to him. He doesn’t remember anyone beating him.

FROM ANDREY BARABANOV’S LAST WORD IN COURT:
“I did not cause anyone any harm. But, despite this, I’ve been kept in jail for 21 months now on charges of mass riots and violence against representatives of the authorities, Though there was no violence on my part.

I’m losing my health, and this is the most important asset of each of us that cannot be restored. I’ve almost lost an eye. And only thanks to the help of some great people my vision was partially restored.
I am not a political activist, was not a member of any parties and movements. I went to a rally with my common-law wife Kate to express my position against injustice. I care about the events happening in the country, in particular about the elections and the vote count. I think I am entitled to express my opinion on this matter. The protests were peaceful and nothing extraordinary happened. Those who came to the rally were in a peaceful mood.

I don’t know why the escalation took place. And I don’t know why the events that took place there were called riots. People should be able to influence events in the country and be active.

Sergei Krivov, 52 years old, physicist, Ph.D. of Physics and Mathematics

THE SENTENCE is 4 years in prison

THE PROSECUTION: He took a baton from policeman Algunov and hit him with it on the wrist. Pushed policeman Moiseev in the chest by his palms which made the policeman take a step back.

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED:
• Algunov kept beating [protestor] Krivov on his head, and at some point Krivov managed to snatch the baton from the policeman’s hands and passed it to the crowd behind his back. The evidence of policeman Algunov constantly changed – Krivov beat him with a baton or with his fist, on his head or on his wrist. One version was that he pulled the baton hanging on a string on the policeman’s hand “as a result of which he had a bruise”.
• The other policeman (Moiseev) was rebuked by Krivov after the policeman had knocked out a camera from a woman’s hand. The policeman tried to detain him but Krivov freed himself pushing the policeman on his chest. Moiseev recalled the physical pain experienced when Krivov pushed him by the palms of his hands only in October before Krivov’s arrest.

FROM SERGEY KRIVOV’S LAST WORD IN COURT:
“On May 6, 2012 I was resisting the violence and illegal actions of the police… I don’t accept any guilt on my part and I repeat it specifically for the prosecution. The guilt is with those who saw the violence applied to innocent people, and did nothing to protect them.

I still insist on prosecuting the heads of the Interior Ministry and other power structures who disrupted the peace rally and organized beating of those who peacefully protested against the illegitimate regime. They beated me and other peace marchers. The fact is that on May 6, 2012, the political leadership of the country, acting consciously and pursuing their political goals, violated the constitutional rights of citizens who took part in the event which was extremely undesirable and dangerous for the authorities – a protest against illegitimate elections. The authorities organized the riot and put the blame for it on their opponents – the citizens demanding compliance with the country’s Constitution, elective legislation, rights and freedoms guaranteed by the European Convention on human rights.

The fierce and unreasonable beating of citizens that took place on May 6, 2012 forced the citizens to protect their health by resisting the police who were acting on criminal orders. The actions of protesters were presented by the ruling elite as actions of hooligans who attacked the civilian police. Although the latter behaved like fascists in an occupied country.

Putin declares that he doesn’t believe it and does not see the facts. And why would he see them? Why should he admit the obvious facts if his goal is to shift the guilt from his head to the heads of his opponents?

I do not recognize this court. It was appointed by the President who is a de facto party to the conflict. This court cannot be free and objective. All Federal judges are appointed personally by the President and are included in the vertical of power [the judge tells him to stop and says it “has no relation to the case”]. Krivov continues: “There is no division of power between the legislative, executive and judicial powers as is required by article 10 of the Russian Constitution.

I think that the people watching this trial see that my words are true. All federal judges appointed by Putin are in cooperation with each other…” [the judge: “I INTERRUPT you since you don’t listen to my instructions and declare the end of the trial. The sentence will be announced on February, 21st”.]

Denis Lutskevich, 22 years old, student at the State Academy of Humanitarian Sciences

THE SENTENCE is 3 years and 6 months in prison

THE PROSECUTION: “He participated in the removal of the helmet of the riot policeman Troerin, drew the helmet from his hands, which gave the policeman discomfort”.

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED:
• The video shows that Lutskevich did not touch the helmet of policeman Troerin.
• Initially the prosecution did not even blame Lutskevich for any physical harm to the policeman.
• In his first testimony Troerin did not mention the episode with “snatching the helmet”. Besides that he said that he didn’t remember anyone specific from the crowd. After a few weeks though he gave a detailed description of Lutskevich’s appearance after which the investigation began to falsify a criminal case against him.

FROM DENIS LUTSKEVICH’S LAST WORD IN COURT: “… none of the policemen who are considered victims in this case recognized me in their first testimonies. The truth always wins, even if you die in the battle”.

Ilya Gushin, 25 years old, student of Moscow State Psychological and Pedagogical University

THE PROSECUTION: “He dragged policeman Antonov by his bulletproof vest when he was beating a protestor lying on the ground”

ILYA GUSHIN: “Riot police started beating up people, I tried to protect the man they were beating. I tried to drag the policeman from the protester. He turned around at me and slashed at me with a truncheon.

I do not understand on what basis charges were brought against me about my involvement in breaking through the police cordon, as well as arson, damage to property, use of incendiary mixtures and explosives, violence – all of which are the qualifying characteristics of “mass disorder”.

Alexey Polihovich, 23, student of Russian State Social University

THE SENTENCE is 3 years and 6 months  in prison

THE PROSECUTION: “He resisted the police detention of a demonstrator, grabbed the hand of policemanTarasov and caused him physical pain”.

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED:
• Tarasov was recognized as a ‘victim’ 7 months after the events in Bolotnaya square. Earlier in his testimony Tarasov did not mention any physical pain allegedly inflicted to him. In December 2012 he said that he had had some redness of skin on his arm, after which the charges against student Polihovich were supplemented by article 318 (“violence against a representative of the authorities”)
• At trial Tarasov said that he sustained neither physical nor moral damage, had no complaints against the defendant, suggested that everything should be forgotten and described all his discomfort as “three nights spent without his wife”.

FROM ALEXEY POLIHOVICH’S LAST WORD AT THE TRIAL:
“We clearly saw the illegal beatings of peaceful demonstrators. No matter how selective your perception is and how many stars you have on your shoulder straps, you can’t beat with feet and truncheons a person lying on the pavement and call it ‘detention’. To claim that such police actions are not relevant to the subject is a lie intended to split the nature of the events. This slyness pursues two objectives.

First, an illusion of legality of police actions is created due to lack of critical assessment of their actions.

Second, the behavior of protesters is deprived of its natural context (the forced bottleneck created for the protesters, unmotivated police violence, lack of clarity what’s going on) and placed into an artificial context (criminal intent, riots, rampage). Our actions are interpreted against the background of this [artificial] context, designed by the Investigation Committee. A thrown lemon, retention of the metal barriers, some mythic anti-government slogans are qualified as participation in mass riots, though there is no such qualification in the text of the 212-th article of the Russian Federation Criminal Code. Determination of the presence or absence of a crime is a creative process in this country.

…The authorities have taken us hostages from the society. We are being tried for the ‘painful sensations’ the officials experienced from civil activity of 2011-2012, for the phantoms of police chiefs. We’ve been turned into the characters of a punishment show for the society”.

Alexey Gaskarov, 28, graduate of the Finance Academy, an anti-fascist

THE PROSECUTION: He dragged riot policeman Ibatullin by his leg when he was beating a demonstrator. He also pulled the arm of the internal army serviceman Bulychev thus disrupting the chain of military guards.

ALEXEY GASKAROV: “The police were breaking into the crowd that had children and pregnant women among them. They broke into the crowd in a wedge, using physical force. Their actions had a clear provocative character. Seeing it and being in this stressful situation, I decided to try to break up the crowd and the police”.

Michael Kosenko, 38 years

THE SENTENCE: Forced psychiatric treatment in a mental institution FOR LIFE

THE PROSECUTION: “He gave blows to policeman Kazmin”.

WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED:
• Kosenko is suffering from a mild mental disorder he has been coping with on his own for 10 years by regular visits to the doctor and taking pills. Psychiatrists found his condition stable. Michael is adequate, logical, reasonable, and everyone who attended the trial could make sure of it when they heard his questions, his comments and read his letters. After the arrest his diagnosis was artificially aggravated.
• The photos and videos show that Kosenko did not approach Kazmin and a fight was taking place a few meters away from him.
• Out of four police officers who testified at the trial, only one said that Kosenko resorted to violence, but could not explain what kind of violence it was: “he made motions with his hands in the direction of policeman Kazmin”.

FROM MICHAEL KOSENKO’S LAST WORD IN COURT (who was ruled “insane” at the trial as you remember ):

“The greatest value in the country is freedom. This is what the majority of the population of our country in deprived of in varying degrees. First of all it concerns prisoners. A huge number of people are kept in prisons and camps for nothing, and no one is helping them… And those who are jailed for crimes they really committed do not deserve the conditions they are kept in. As prisoners say after the term in prison none of them are able to recover. The mentally ill are in a difficult situation in prison. The most difficult thing for them is Haloperidol which is a banned drug. It has many side effects and results in many deaths, causes muscle cramps and stiffness, and inflicts pain.

Our people are accustomed to suffering. Russia is building an Eastern model of society which is lack of freedom in exchange for a good life. The government builds its propaganda on the amount of money spent and its results. But happiness is not in money – it is an ancient thought, though being contested now. Happiness is in freedom of people. There are many countries where the material level is lower than in Russia, but their level of satisfaction with life is much higher. Our people are used to live in poverty, and that is why even a minor improvement looks like a significant achievement.

Freedom is independence from evil, real opportunities… Our country has great opportunities but for their realization you need various freedoms, and they are missing or limited. Freedom of the media – first on TV which is censored though censorship is actually prohibited [by law].

After a significant reduction of the space for the rally as compared with the agreed one the authorities presented their illegal demands as legal. Because the government thinks that they are the law. When several dozen people from those crammed into a smaller space broke through the police cordon, the government decided that now they have the right to disperse tens of thousands of people who came to the rally. By their tactics and politically motivated actions, the authorities constantly irritated people who were resentful of these illegal activities. It is the authorities who broke the law and when they were rebuffed they pretended to be law-abiding and pointed to their article 318 (“violence against a representative of the authorities” – editor’s note).

The police took the protesters as their enemies, and this means that they were instructed in the respective way, were told to be tough and give a tough response. The riot police in Bolotnaya square were far from being representatives of the law. Actions of riot policemen in that square were politically motivated and prompted by their superiors. It was a political confrontation. The demonstrators were protesting against unfair elections… The demand of fair elections is the fairest of demands.

The authorities are against honest and fair elections, because as a result of them they will have to go. The government consists largely of incompetent people, of those who violate the law. There should be a rotation of power, and not the eternal regime of only some. With the current regime Russia will not be able to cope with the serious problems which will be inevitable in the future.
Those who support the government often say that there is no other option and no one else to govern the country. This is highly doubtful. Russia has a wealth of talented and strong-willed people and they can come to power only through free and fair elections.
I want to thank everyone who supported me, my attorneys, my sister, all those who came to the trial sessions. As to my sanity, I ask the court to consider me sane.

THE SENTENCE is: Forced psychiatric treatment in a mental institution for life.

Source:

https://www.facebook.com/NarodProtiv?ref=stream

 

SAYING OF THE DAY:

Дернул за рукав - 4 года, сбил три вертолета - мирный протестующий“If you pull a policeman by his sleeve you get 4 years in prison.

If you take down three helicopters in the East of Ukraine you are a peaceful protester, a supporter of federalization”.

May 4, 2014

Svetlana Gannushkina, member of the Russian Council on human rights:

‘We have a law on “foreign agents”. But what was done to Ukraine is discrediting Russia in a way which no foreign agent could think of in his most violent imagination’.

‘When they say that “it is Putin, we are not to blame, we do not support it, we are against this, the common people are not to blame” – and all this type of opinion expressed when we want to distance ourselves from what’s happening, let me say thie following: I don’t want to distance myself from it, I want to resist it. Because I believe that if I am a citizen of Russia, I am responsible for it. Otherwise we are the subjects of Mr. Putin, not Russian citizens. And this is a completely different approach. I think it would be right to make sanctions against us, the citizens of Russia, as we are responsible for what is happening now.’

‘We need joint work. You have to understand that one of the consequences of globalization was the emergence of a unified civil society, which unites us all– the citizens of US and Europe, and Ukraine, and Russia. I think that if the basis for this unity is human rights, democracy and humanitarian values, then we will be able to create unity in the framework of the whole planet, and that is actually allowed by today’s technology. We live in the times of incredible speed, we have common information space, and it is also necessary to understand that we face a choice between two options – either we go to the destruction of the planet because of the enormous power in our hands, or we go to this unity. In general terms this is the choice of mankind, and not a current one between you and me today. I hope we will make the right choice.”

Svetlana Gannushkina:

 

April 29, 2014

WHY A RUSSIAN SHOULDN’T BE A SUCCESSFUL BLOGGER

On 15 April the State Duma [parliament] Committee on information policy approved an amendment on registering  bloggers. In addition, the legislation has now actually equated bloggers to the media. All social networks should disclose information about bloggers whose audience exceeds three thousand visits a day.

The definition of a blogger according to the new Russian law is “a person who places information for open access on a personal Internet site (page) whose daily audience is more than three thousand visits”.

As the law does not directly define “visits” this concept can be viewed by the authors of the document as the number of hits (page views), and the number of visitors (unique IP addresses approaching the website).

Bloggers are obliged to verify the accuracy of published information and should immediately delete inaccurate information.

All users of the Internet with a three thousand daily audience are prohibited from hiding “socially significant information” and from falsifying it. What constitutes “socially significant information” the law does not say.

Bloggers must observe the rules of publication of materials on elections and referenda, i.e. not to publish the survey data five days before voting. On election day it is prohibited to publish the results of exit-polling until the polls are closed.

Bloggers are obliged to observe the law – not to spread extremist information, not to disclose state secrets, not to publish libelous statements. They should also avoid obscene language. Punishment for these actions is already specified by other laws.

Bloggers should not only monitor what they write themselves, but they are responsible for other users who can write something on their page. Thus every blogger is responsible not only for their own posts, but for any comment on his page too.

Every blogger must indicate on his page the name and initials, and also the e-mail address. No penalties for failure to comply with these requirements are yet specified in the law.

All bloggers will be listed in a special register. The list will be monitored by Roskomnadzor [Russian monitoring committee]. The office will develop a method of calculating the daily audience and will search for users whose hits exceed three thousand visits per day.

Roskomnadzor will have the right to request from the “organizers of the dissemination of information” the identity of each user. The organizer of the dissemination of information is considered to be a “person performing activities on the functioning of information systems and/or programs that are used for reception, transmission, delivery and processing of electronic messages to users.” According to the head of the Committee Alexei Mitrofanov, this includes Facebook, Twitter and any other social network in the broadest sense.

The blog is excluded from the register automatically if within six months its daily audience does not exceed three thousand visits.

How it works

Roskomnadzor finds a blog – it can be a personal website, social network, etc. Using their method, the office calculates the daily audience of the blog. If it exceeds three thousand people, Roskomnadzor asks the “hosting provider accommodating a personal site to provide data about the owner of the page”. The information should allow identification of the user. The recipient is given three working days to respond. After receiving information from the provider Roskomnadzor notifies the user that he/she is a blogger now, and adds him/her to their registry.

If your ISP does not provide information about the user, the provider is to be penalized in the amount of up to three hundred thousand rubles (around $10,000). The law also imposes fines on “the organizers of dissemination of information”, who are obliged to provide Roscomnadzor and law enforcement officials with information about all actions of users at their first demand.

The law is to come into effect on August 1, 2014.

Full text: http://therunet.com/articles/2755-chto-nuzhno-znat-pro-novyy-zakon-o-blogerah

April 28, 2014

Life is getting funnier here with every new day. See this news please.

RUSSIAN INTERNET IS TO BE PLACED UNDER FULL CONTROL

“The Kommersant reports that the authorities discuss a complex of measures to tighten control over Internet service providers. The goal is filtering data at all levels of its transmission, impossibility to place the DNS servers of.RU and RF domains outside Russia and a ban on a connection between local networks of data transmission and foreign Internet networks. Many experts and networks operators fear that the state will receive an unlimited opportunity for the Internet censorship.

Information about proposals to control the Internet by Russian authorities was provided to the Kommersant by a source in the telecommunications market and was confirmed by a Federal official and two managers of Internet companies. Proposals on legal regulation in the sphere of communication infrastructure are prepared by the working group under the administration of the President of the Russian Federation, according to those who are familiar with their content.

The proposals suggest a forcible introduction of three levels of data transmission: local, regional, national. The next step is to impose a ban on the access of regional and local networks to foreign servers. The traffic of regional and local operators is proposed to be passed only through the networks of Russian operators. All levels of data networks will be filtered for its content. There will also be a ban on deploying the .RU and .RF server domains outside Russia.

A representative of a big internet provider says that “there is no definition of content filtering. Legal regulations already restrict access to illegal or pirated content. Now the idea is probably to limit access to the content in foreign languages, for example English. But in this case the proposal will contradict the 29th article of the Constitution of the Russian Federation, giving the right to free access to information”.

In addition, big expenses will be required for the creation of a DNS server in Russia. Now most of these servers are located in USA (more than 10), and several more are in Germany and China. The proposal to introduce a state licensing of the activity to transfer URLs into IP addresses and back is regarded by him as “disconnecting users from the Internet.”

Large Internet companies expected  new measures on Internet regulation in Russia. Last week Vladimir Putin said that Internet was created and is being operated as a special CIA project. And since the main data flows through the servers in the US where everything is controlled, the President of Russia considers it necessary to place the servers of major Russian Internet resources in Russia.”

Full text: http://kommersant.ru/doc/2462760

April 24, 2014

Boris Akunin

Boris Akunin

Writer Boris Akunin wrote an open letter to the bosses of “Yves Rocher” company today:

On April 24, the trial of Alexei Navalny, leader of the Russian democratic opposition, began in Moscow. This event continues a series of fabricated trials by which the authoritarian regime is trying to eliminate from political life the bold and consistent fighter against the government corruption.

Alexei Navalny is now under house arrest due to your case initiated by your company’s complaint where you accused him of financial fraud. This way you have already helped the Putin regime to isolate Navalny from the society, and his conviction in your case will put him behind bars.

The name of your world-famous company is used by Russian authorities to discredit the opposition in the eyes of international community.

I don’t know why you agreed to participate in this ugly game – it is probably because your refusal would have led to serious problems for your large business in Russia.

Subsequently, probably being ashamed of what you did you withdrew your complaint, but it didn’t change anything.

The fact that the Russian Prosecutor’s office ignored the withdrawal of the claim does not surprise anyone in Russia –  we have long been accustomed to the Kafkian style of our repressive system.

But the most surprising thing is that the company “Yves Rocher” pretends that what’s happening now has nothing to do with it.

Well, it has.

Please be aware that if due to the silence of the very well-known French company the most famous Russian opposition leader goes to jail, the name of “Yves Rocher” will become a symbol of shame.

Do not keep silent.

Express your position publicly.

It is clear that profit and business are very important and that you don’t want to quarrel with the vengeful and powerful Russian authorities.

But remember that you are not only businessmen, but also citizens of the country which the world is accustomed to associate with the home of freedom and human rights.

Please also remember that there are times when silence is a crime – crime du silence as Jean-Paul Sartre used to say.

Boris Akunin, writer.

http://echo.msk.ru/blog/b_akunin/1305842-echo/

April 15, 2014

Each new day here is crazier than the previous one. Now the photos of Russian protesters against our government’s activity in Ukraine were placed on the central railway station in Simferopol, the capital of Crimea:  http://www.unn.com.ua/uploads/media/photo/2014/04/15/c13776dca87a4d10f1e28efa69fe2886d57a7aa6.jpg

The board has a picture of Uncle Sam crossed in the middle and a notice on top of it: “BEWARE! AGENTS OF THE WEST”.

The list includes (clockwise from the top left):

  • Alexey Navalny, lawyer exposing corrupt government figures
  • Boris Nemtsov, politician
  • Mikhail Kasiyanov, former Prime-Minister
  • Ilya Ponomaryov, Parliament deputy
  • Nataliya Sindeeva, editor-in-chief of TV Rain channel (now blocked)
  • Pussy Riot, the two girls who served two years in prison for singing an anti-government song in the central church
  • Dmitry Gudkov, Parliament deputy
  • Gennady Gudkov, Parliament deputy (now stripped of his deputy status)
  • Vladimir Ryzhkov, politician
  • Andrei Makarevitch, musician and song-writer
BEWARE AGENTS OF THE WEST. A notice for the photos of Russian protesters against a military campaign in Ukraine

BEWARE! AGENTS OF THE WEST. A notice accompanying the photos of Russian protesters against the military campaign in Ukraine

I  can’t believe that this is really happening.

Here is another proof that the photo is real.

Crimea. April 15, 2014

Crimea. April 15, 2014

 

April 13, 2014

At the Moscow rally called MARCH OF TRUTH and held on April 13, 2014 against massive lies in the media, Professor Andrei Zubov spoke of two Russias – the Russia of Lies and the Russia of Truth and Honesty. His views are very close to mine and this is why I’ve transcribed and translated his speech:

Friends!

On this wonderful day, the day of celebrating the Lord’s Entrance into Jerusalem a terrible tragedy is taking place. The blood of Russians and Ukrainians is shed in the city with a symbolic name of Slavyansk. This is happening today, right now. And it is happening because those who self-proclaimed their power over us are governing us not for our or even their own benefit but for the benefit of LIES whose father is Satan.

When people ask me how to distinguish which way to go I always give the same answer. If you see that you are being lied to and told that war is peace and invaders are peaceful civilians – you should know that you are being taken to the abyss. The road of lies always takes you to the abyss. Because, dear friends, the world is built on truth and there is no other foundation for the world but the truth.

I am a historian of religion. I know the religions of Ancient Egypt and Ancient India. In both of them the truth is the basis that sustains the world and its people. And when we are taken away from the truth by politicians, journalists, diplomats, they commit a crime against our country, against us and against their own immortal souls. They kill themselves and they kill us, and seeing this pains me infinitely.

But do we have an antidote, an opportunity, dear friends, to stand up to this? SUCH AN OPPORTUNITY EXISTS. It exists for every person, big and small, in Moscow or in a distant province – and it is the life lived in TRUTH.

The reason why there are so many liars now is not because they shoot at us for the truth. No, they do not shoot at us for the truth yet. Lies are the result of greed of those who serve these lies and of their fear. They are intimidating us. They want to tell us: “We will do something horrible to you”.  But they will not be able to do anything. Because the lie lacks strength, lie is a shadow, lie has short legs. And the power is in the truth.

Our great Solzhenitsyn used to say – one word of truth is able to pull the whole world over to its side. He managed to do it, and will be able to do it too.

Cheer up, friends. Sometimes we feel very scared. Sometimes we feel sick. But do not fall into despair. Remember, victory over falsehood begins with a victory over yourself, over your heart. Beat the lie inside yourself and tomorrow there will be no lies in our society and in our Russia. Long live OUR Russia, OUR country!

By our Russia Professor Zubov means the country of honesty which is different from that  of lies.

The video ends in a song called Prayer. The photos carried by protesters are of those who were detained on May 6, 2012 at a similar peace rally and were sent to prison for up to 4 years.

April 11, 2014

Each new day brings new incredible revelations. Look at this picture of a “House of books” store in the center of Moscow. It has a banner on it showing the photos of Russians who oppose the campaign of our authorities against Ukraine.

The banner reads: “THE FIFTH COLUMN. ALIENS ARE AMONG US”.

The one who shared this photo on Facebook left a cheerful comment:

“Soon they will hang out a schedule of burning at stake. Follow the news”.

The feeling is totally surreal.

* * *

And while division among people is promoted in Russia the students from Western Ukraine addressed the Russian-speaking population of Eastern Ukraine and Russia:

“We have no hate for you. We are a multi-national region and we live in peace with each other. Please don’t form an opinion of us by watching only Russian TV. Don’t let Putin cheat you. Ukraine, be united. All of us are children of Ukraine.”

CAN YOU GUESS WHOSE MUSIC THEIR SELECTED FOR THEIR PEACE AND UNITY CALL?

April 8, 2014

Quotes from Russian journalists and politiciansThe reality of today’s Russia is best seen from the quotes of our journalists and politicians.

Quote 1. Zhirinovsky (parliament deputy):

  • “Millions of children dream of living in orphanages”

Quote 2. Churov (head of the Elections Committee):

  • “Why am I regarded to be a difficult opponent? Because I never lie”.

Quote 3. Peskov (President’s aide):

  • “Every wound of a riot policeman should be answered by spreading the protesters’ liver over the asphalt”.

Quote 4: Serdukov (former Defense Minister):

  • “There is no crisis in the military construction. We have an order not to notice the crisis”. 

Quote 5: Kiselyov (journalist):

  • “I think that it isn’t enough to penalize gays for homosexual propaganda: they should be forbidden to be donors of blood and sperm, and their hearts in case of car accidents should be buried in the ground or burned”.

Quote 6: Kiselyov (journalist):

  • “Russia is the only country which is able to turn the US into radioactive ashes”

Quote 7: Mamontov, journalist (about Pussy Riot?):

  • “Harassment of the Russian Orthodox Church began in 2012” 

Quote 8: Skoibeda (journalist):

  • “I sometimes wish the ancestors of today’s liberals had been used by Nazis for making lamp shades. We would have fewer problems now”.

Quote 9: Matvienko (speaker of the Senate):

  • “Protesters come to their marches in white clothes and hidden razors. They cut themselves and spill blood on each other in order to blame the police for beating them up!” 

Quote 10: Yarovaya (parliament deputy):

  • “The opposition is a bunch of people who are no different from terrorists and criminals, and who feed from the same hands”.

https://www.facebook.com/events/225562954305800/permalink/228626473999448/

The hit list of quotes is suggested for a sort of a black humor contest at a TRUTH RALLY to be held on April 13, 2014. We will be selecting the most smashing statement out of the ten recently voiced. Though the whole thing is supposed to be a kind of fun, in my humble opinion the quotes about the liver spread over the asphalt, radioactive ashes and lamp-shades made out of liberals’ skin qualify more for an international court.

The above statements are nominated for a “Golden diarrhea” award. I will tell you which quote has won – if  my liver is not spread over the asphalt of course (a joke, guys). Nothing bad is likely to happen as the rally was agreed with the authorites and even much earlier than the 10 days required for such a peaceful get-together.

April 7, 2014

Борис НемцовThough the situation is not funny here is a funny comment from our politician Boris Nemtsov again.

“How sweet! The “Kharkiv” separatists mistook the Kharkiv Opera and Ballet theatre for the city administration. So they are not locals….

Well, things happen. They were probably guided by GLONASS.

But this is not all. And immediate angry rebuke came from the Russian Foreign Office saying that Russia has nothing to do with the seizure of buildings in the East of Ukraine. http://www.echo.msk.ru/news/1295522-echo.html

In today’s Russia lie is truth. And truth is lie. Just as the classic said it.”

Donetsk legislators. April 7, 2014In Donetsk the separatists declared Peoples Republic of Donetsk and voted for holding a referendum on joining  Russia.

Ladies and gentlemen, presenting the legislators of the new Peoples Republic.

 

March 29, 2014

A special note for my VMJ friends.

Here is a point of view of one of our (few) independent politicians, Boris Nemtsov on the current situation:

THERE WILL BE NO WAR

“If we proceed from an almost indisputable thesis that Putin annexed the Crimea for the sake of strengthening his own power and not for protecting the Crimean Russians from any harassment, there will be no invasion into Eastern Ukraine. Because a war is where people are killed and wounded, and this means a decline in ratings. 75% citizens of Russia are against war. The provocations are necessary firstly, for blackmailing the West and encouraging restrictions and sanctions, and secondly, for exerting influence on the elections of the Ukrainian President. But there will be no war.” http://b-nemtsov.livejournal.com/

March 26, 2014

I think that he is right. The idea of the whole Crimean campaign seems to be totally different from what we thought before. It isn’t a war per se and not a world war all the more so. Our leader was simply so frightened by the Maidan revolution in Kiev that made a preemptive move not to let the “infection” spread over Russia. And the ultimate goal of the move is naturally stifling the newly born Ukranian democracy.

In fact the main idea behind this Crimea ‘adventure’ seems to be intimidating Russians into thinking that any form of internal protest inevitably leads to the break-up of the country and hence the need to turn Ukraine into a sort of a lesson for Russians (and Ukrainians). The goal of the lesson is to demonstrate the “horrific consequences” of any internal protest against the government, even if the protest is justified. These include a “revolution” and a “civil war” both of which are the greatest frights of Russians ever since our own revolution and civil war in 1917-1918.

Hence the fear of most people here that protests can only “destabilize” and hence their look at those who criticize the authorities as “national traitors”.

Our big political strategists are evidently not afraid of any sanctions from Europe and US because further isolation of Russia will be only to their advantage. If Russia is encircled by “enemies” it will enable them to set a new iron curtain for “defending” the population. And from this point on there will be an open road to doing away with the “fifth column” and national traitors” who dare to criticize. These ideas and words were already voiced by our President in his recent speech and will directly affect anyone who has the courage to voice a protest. This will naturally concern yours truly too.

I just thought that you should know.

March 29, 2014

Despite limited possibility to voice an independent opinion now, yesterday there was an unexpected instance of some. It came in the form of buffoonery that took place at the “Golden Mask” Theatre Festival which celebrated its 20th anniversary. Here is an account of the eye-witness of the event:

The “Golden Mask” celebrated its 20th anniversary at a grand evening at the Vakhtangov theatre. The central part of the celebration was a political cabaret directed by Kirill Serebrennikov. The brilliant Alexej Devotchenko wearing a decrepit jacket and a battered hat quietly came from behind the scenes with a “NO” poster in his hands. He then turned into a sparkling cabaret artist in a white tailcoat surrounded by dancing girls in feathers and policemen with their truncheons…

And Alex sang! He sang about people who don’t give a damn about anything at all, spectators whose only interest in life is a good laugh and drink, about the theatre that shows a beautiful ‘nothing’, and in all this crazy schizophrenic entourage his face shone with such an expression that it was impossible not to shout “Bravo” to him.

The culmination of the scene was the emergence of “Orthodox activists” from among the audience jumping one after another on stage and singing with their ringing voices the anthem to “good” to the tune of “Tomorrow Belongs To Me» reminding you of the “Cabaret” movie and its famous Nazi scene in a pub.

It was cool, guys. It was so cool that the stalls were scared. And when Alex began reading out the message addressed by “cultural workers” to the “Secretary-General” to express support for “the square of the hypotenuse equaling the sum of the squares of the other two sides of a triangle”, and that all those who do not agree should please seek happiness in other countries, the stalls subsided completely. And not all those present had a desire to applaud to that number at all…

The “Golden Mask” national theatre award said “NO”. And we were witnesses to it.

I haven’t seen the celebration as it was naturally not broadcast on TV or anywhere, but this amateur YouTube video gives some idea of what it was like.

Its highlights:

– the protester in shabby clothes throws away his “NO’ poster, sits at a piano and sings that there are so many good things besides politics – “flowers, dogs and cats” and people come to the theatre “not to listen to our preaching”. And “no one wants the drama of politics, there are so many much nicer things to do”….

– he sings that people are indifferent and foolish. They like to be entertained and dislike thinking with their own heads. And no one wants drama – there are so many nice and funny subjects to discuss. “They come to the theatre not to listen to your sadness…” A dance scene with Cossacks, girls in feathers and policemen with their truncheons follows.

– he makes an announcement: “Ladies and gentlemen, please turn on your mobile telephones. We remind you that photo and video shooting of the event is very much welcome. Checking up your emails and updating your social network accounts while watching this event is obligatory for anyone who wants to keep up with the times”.

– three girls sing in chorus: “Leave a comment!” and “Maximal repost”.

– the first girl: “Why don’t you just stop this hysteria and simply love you motherland? Motherland raised and educated you. And what did you do for Motherland? You are dissatisfied with everything, you go to rallies to protest… Stop this hysteria and learn to love your motherland”. Chorus: “Leave a comment! If you haven’t made a photo you shouldn’t have come at all”.

– the second girl: “So you had your theatre closed? You should be happy about it. People need a Russian psychological professional state repertoire theater and not these experiments….” 

– the third girl: “I’m so sick and tired of everything non-appealing to the eye. These deputies, these invalids, these gays, these immigrants. Why can’t we have Benedict Cumberbatch instead of these Tajiks [guest workers]? And why should I be worried about some prisoners, orphans and other people’s laws? I have no time for it and don’t want it. I don’t want anything at all. And nothing will ever change in this country. I forgive you all. Go to hell. Smile, smile, smile.”

– the host of the show reads an appeal addressed to the “Secretary-General”: “When the very foundations of our existence are endangered we, the art workers of our country, cannot remain indifferent to…….. we sincerely hope that nothing will threaten…… we give our firm support for the position of our Secretary-General…….. here is a place to sign it ….. though of course as cultural workers you have the right to an independent opinion….. it is a free country and you have the right not to sign…. after all the whole world is open to you and you may feel more comfortable in another place…..

– the activists coming from the audience sing: “The devil’s circle is narrowing around us… Actresses, repent and cover up your legs and breasts, so that this temple doesn’t see your shame… Our future is the theatre of good… We’ll raise our art from the dirt it is in… This is our cross…”

Well, all this is buffoonery of course, but now you have at least a comic idea of the main forces at play here.

The video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VjhC6upOYU

March 28, 2014

SAVING FACE IN TIMES OF SHAME

Dear friends, this page was created long ago for topics unrelated to Michael Jackson.

However the moment I wrote it I realized that no matter what subject I raise it will inevitably come to Michael again.

Yes, even the unusual subject I am going to speak about will also be related to Michael’s values and the way he lived his life – I mean being honest with oneself, making a change and standing by what you believe no matter what. In fact it was Michael who taught me this and now I am unwilling to give it up.

The little change I can probably make is tell those who read this blog that in this time of extreme embarrassment over Russia’s behavior towards Ukraine there are Russian people who are not supportive of the shameful steps taken by the country, and do not approve the brutal methods of our government as well as the nationalistic frenzy the rest of the population fell into.

Unfortunately at the moment those who are in dissent are the absolute minority, and I am one of them.

A protest for us has never been easy, but now it is becoming really dangerous. Everyone who protests risks to be labelled a national traitor, the fifth column or an extremist deserving criminal prosecution as in accordance with the recently passed law (to come into effect on May 9, 2014 http://www.rbcdaily.ru/politics/562949990932895) anyone criticizing the way the Crimea was joined to Russia can go to prison for up to 5 years. As usual this criticism will be hypocritically named “calls for breaking the territorial integrity of the country”.

I am not a kamikaze but still want to remain an honest person, so while balancing between the two will try to familiarize you with the sadness, absurdity and fear of having to live in an atmosphere of disagreement with those who are in power in my country. So even if the dissent doesn’t take us anywhere this way you will at least know what it was like for us and that we have been trying.

As an example below here is an account of a 27-year old woman who took the challenge and did not give in though now she is risking to never be able to find work. She tells a story of going to the University of People’s Friendship in Moscow for a job interview and being bold enough to mention her position over the Crimea. See what came of it – the picture is both humorous and scary:

WITH VIEWS LIKE THAT YOU NEED TO LEAVE RUSSIA! THE IDEOLOGICAL IDIOCY OF SOME RUSSIAN HIGHER EDUCATION INSTITUTIONS

Dear friends! Yesterday, March 24, 2014, I experienced what I had read about only in books about the year 1937. Never did I think that it could return so soon again.

Please read it because it concerns everyone, all ordinary people.

I was invited for a job interview to Russian University of Peoples ‘ Friendship (RUDN). The vacancy was that of a teacher of German to medical students and students of the agrarian faculty. The head of the German language section, a middle aged stylish woman was very glad to see me as there is no one to teach German to students and the main load was upon her, and a young teacher with a Ph.D. degree is a rare find (I’m 27).

The probability that they were going to employ me was over 100%. The biggest complication my future boss was afraid of was that the Head of the Chair would lure me into the English language section, but I assured her that I wanted to teach German and would not be going over to English. After that we went to the Head of the Chair.

We had to wait for about half an hour as she was at a meeting. Then she invited us to her office. I will try to briefly describe our conversation.

The scene and characters taking part in it as follows:

I’m sitting on a chair by the wall. The Head of the Chair is at her desk to the right of me. Let’s call her Elena Alexandrovna. On the left next to me her Deputy (or assistant) Irina Alexandrovna is sitting at a small table.  Yes, they are sisters. The head of the German language section who brought me in is standing by the small table the whole 20-30 minutes the conversation is going on.

The Head of the Department is studying my resume.

– Why did you work at the Department of grammar? Did you want to teach grammar that much?
– It was mostly because that department had people who I wanted to work with.
– Did you choose the theme of the dissertation yourself?
– No, it was offered to me by my supervisor, but at that time most probably neither I nor she knew what would come of it.

Since the resume had a point about “Interests, Hobbies” the conversation went another way.

I have to say that when making my resume I was doubtful whether I needed to point out that I had studied in the summer school of «Russian reporter» and periodically publish articles. But at that time in my naivety (or common sense?) I decided that a smart employer would appreciate it that teaching German grammar was not the only interest of the applicant for a job.

– What are your journalistic publications?
– It’s just my hobby.
– This I understand, but what do you write about?
– I’ve written about different topics: about ecology, the volunteer movement, I wrote about elections.
– How do you assess the ecological situation?
– I’ve written not so much about the environment but more of the growth of civil activity in Russia in connection with the environment, on environmental volunteer camps in which I participated.
– And where have you been?
– Generally the place is not that important as garbage is everywhere. I’ve been, for example, to the Gulf of Finland.
– No, it is important: it is one thing when it is in the suburbs of Moscow, and another thing when it is the Gulf of Finland.
– I collected garbage everywhere, for example, near Biserovo lake, in the South Butovo district where I live, and other places.

Since that moment I began to feel like it was Franz Kafka standing behind my back and conducting the whole «process».

– What is your point of view about the Crimea?
– Is this important??? (I asked with some bewilderment and gradual realization of who I was dealing with)
– Yes, for me this is a fundamental issue.

Let me remind you that I was interviewed for a post of the teacher of the German language for students of the Medical and Agricultural Department and was to teach German from scratch, i.e. cases, word order, declension, conjugation –  all those things.

– Maybe I will disappoint you, but I do not support the policy of Russia in the Crimea.
– Why?
– I think that Russia is pursuing an aggressive policy and is using wrong methods, violating international agreements.

At this point I realized that the person talking to me turned into a function, propagandist, a political officer – anything but the Head of the Chair of foreign languages.

– See how our young people have been brainwashed! How old are you? Do you understand anything at all? You probably rarely watch TV?
– I try to get information from more reliable sources.
– Do you know who fought for the Crimea?
– And do you know that it belonged to Greeks for a thousand years? Do you want to give it to them on this basis?

– I KNOW EVERYTHING! It was a shock when the Crimea went to Ukraine. Have you seen people with flags?

This was followed by a brief summary of the news from the Federal TV channels.

E.A: I have never been to Ukraine. Even to Kiev.
I: And I have been to Kiev and the Crimea and Western Ukraine twice. I just don’t want a war between Russia and Ukraine!
E.A.: And who wants it? And why would it start? Russia did not send its troops to the territory of Ukraine, no, no, it did not. And in general I love all nations, it is the good in each individual that matters.

Then her sister Irina Aleksandrovna (obviously her junior and a subordinate to her) intervened in the conversation:

Irina: Look at the way you behave. You don’t know how to behave. You do not respect the seniors! Who taught you these manners?

Those who saw me at least once in a lifetime will open their eyes wide at this point. In situations like these my grandmother would say «Laughter in the audience».

I: I respect all people.
Irina: You respect nobody, and this is why you were kicked out of your Pedagogical Institute!
I: No, I was asked to stay.
Irina: No, you were obviously kicked out!

Previously I worked for Moscow Pedagogical State University where I studied and worked for a total of 10 years.

Irina: Do you think that Elena Aleksandrovna is interested in your point of view? And that she has nothing else to do but talk to you?! You are just beginning your career. You should learn and learn!
I: Yes, I know and I’m always ready to learn!
Irina: No you are not!

I was slowly beginning to realize that I needed to make an escape.

I: Listen, I have lost any desire to work at your chair, so let us finish this conversation. If you are need obedient girls instead of teachers this is not a place for me.
E.A.: Yes, I also think that we need to stop this conversation. First learn to respect the elders. This educational institution is not your Pedagogical Institute where they don’t care whom to employ. We are the leading UNIVERSITY. We work with foreigners! We are the face of the country. And I support our country, because I am a patriot, and you know who are – you are an anti-patriot!

I: I consider myself a patriot, and that’s why I’m concerned that Russia is making mistakes.
E.A.: You can consider yourself anything you want. What if she (pointing at me) starts campaigning here and I have to answer for it?! People like you organize terrorist acts (this was said in full seriousness, without a hint of irony in her voice). I support our government and I support our President, Vladimir Putin, and I voted for him (she raises her hand, as if she is at school).

I: Well, it’s your point of view.

Here comes the younger sister again:

Irina: With views like these you need leave Russia!
I: Maybe it is you who need to leave Russia?
Irina: What is your nationality? (this question, as you know, is a clear violation of the law, as well as finding out my political views)

I:  I am a mix of different nationalities (which is true: I have German, Polish, Russian and Cossack blood as well as Jews, Armenians, and probably much more)
Irina: I see it. It shows.
I: What do you see? What’s bad about it?
E.A.: As someone older than you I will say that on the contrary, it is good.

There was a point when I thought that I shouldn’t have expressed my opinion. But then I immediately realized that it was good that I expressed it and was fortunate enough to make these faceless creatures show their gut so fast and I won’t have to work with them side by side, under their supervision.

Irina: (referring to the head of the German section standing by the table) Where have you found a person like THAT? Have you talked to her before bringing her here?

The head of the German section: We have not discussed such topics… (obviously she was in shock from what was  going on)

The elder sister, E.A.: She was supposed to work with students! We even have a newspaper here. We cannot have just anyone working here!  (addressing me) You should know that I was ready to employ you by 100% (as if I didn’t know that)

The head of the German section: Could we still return to her professional activities?

EA: No, it is too late now, there is no going back.

I: I am very glad that everything has cleared up and luckily I don’t have to work here. Please try to look at people with a different opinion from your with more calm.

E.A: Goodbye, you …the ecologist.

I: I’m not an ecologist. I’m a linguist.

This is how we parted.

Less than a month ago I read «The steep route» by Eugenia Ginzburg [about Stalinist times] and now know for sure that I am not the only one to experience this and that there were times even more terrible that today’s.

The head of the German department volunteered to see me off. We were in the teaching room. The fact that I was not to be employed was a blow below the belt for her. She looked at me with almost motherly eyes. I was on edge, of course, and said to her that it is scary that such people are in power there and wondered how she is able to work with them. I had tears in my eyes – more from the shock of it than from being upset.

She was 10-15 years older than my parents and saw a lot in her life.

She said that it was better not to discuss such topics with anyone: «You will say something, they will report you and you will go to jail!»

But I’m not used to it! I was asked a question and I answered it. People shouldn’t be afraid of everyone and everything!

We talked for some 10 minutes, then she said: «God Bless You». She looked up, was also about to cry, but restrained herself saying that her mascara would melt. I dissuaded her from going to the Head of the Chair again to talk her into employing me. She escorted me to the elevator and said «God Bless You» again. She gave me more than a friendly handshake. We said goodbye.

I was leaving the territory of University for Peoples’ Friendship thinking that our Pedagogical University was a paradise in comparison with this obscurantism. Never before had I experienced such warm feelings towards my home University. However, I still hoped that the whole of Peoples’ Friendship University was not that bad and that it was just some specific comrades who were distinguishing themselves this way and were disgracing the whole institution…

My dear ones, please do not allow yourself to be humiliated! No matter what your political views are, whether you are for Putin or against him, no matter where you work or study, just don’t allow yourself to be pressured! I still hope that we don’t have to run away from Russia and I am asking you not to do it. Because if you leave this place, it will be fully taken over by creatures like the ones who talked to me yesterday.

Let’s not think of individual ways to save oneselves. Let us stand our ground and communicate with each other, let us love each other – it really infuriates those who are waiting for us to bow to them and nod at everything they say. And when they are angry, they are particularly funny.

And please don’t think that this will never affect you. One day you will be asked in full seriousness why you are going on vacation to India or Turkey and not to Sochi or Crimea, or why you worked for a foreign company, or why you, while sitting in your car, were listening to Beatles or Time Machine, or Okean Elzy or any English-language pop group instead of our Kobzon or Valeria.

As to me after that occurrence I felt like wings grew behind my back. I once again realized that people is all that matters and that we must remember that we ourselves create our environment.

I retold the episode to my mother. She is proud of me, and I am proud that I have such a mother!

To raise your spirit a bit here is old German song “Die Gedanken sind frei” (Thoughts are free). I think we lack such songs at the moment:

Die Gedanken sind frei, wer kann sie erraten,
sie fliegen vorbei wie nächtliche Schatten.
Kein Mensch kann sie wissen, kein Jäger erschießen
mit Pulver und Blei: die Gedanken sind frei!

Ich denke was ich will und was mich beglücket,
doch alles in der Still’, und wie es sich schicket.
Mein Wunsch und Begehren kann niemand verwehren,
es bleibet dabei: die Gedanken sind frei!

Und sperrt man mich ein im finsteren Kerker,
das alles sind rein vergebliche Werke.
Denn meine Gedanken zerreißen die Schranken
und Mauern entzwei: die Gedanken sind frei!

http://uainfo.org/yandex/298479-vam-s-takoy-poziciey-nado-uezzhat-iz-rossii-ideologicheskiy-marazm-v-rossiyskih-vuzah.html

Frankly, this German song struck a special chord with me as the situation does reminds you of the past. They say that history repeats itself – first as tragedy, then as farce. I wish the whole thing could indeed turn into  farce, though at the moment there is very little ground to hope for it.

And remember that the brave girl will still need to find a job.

At the moment these are the only people who dare express their open disagreement with the authorities – you see them in a March 15th rally against a war with Ukraine. There are approximately 50 thousand people here (I was also there):

March 15, 2014

March 15, 2014

сколько было народу на митинге март 15,2014

Peace rally on March 15, 2014. The official media said the number of attendees was 3 thousand people

March 19, 2014

This interview with Andrei Makarevitch, frontman of “Time Machine” rock group reflects very well my own understanding of the situation with Ukraine. Some excerpts from it:

It’s easier to unleash your demons than allow angels to come in

“The Crimea has split the society. These days everyone has been choosing where to stand – under the banner of the President or the banner of his conscience which was screaming «No» to the threat of war and blood. People with the perfect pitch – Shevchuk, Grebenschikov, Makarevich – made the right choice. The leader of the legendary rock group «Time Machine» explained to the «New Gazette» why.

Journalist: Where do you think has the time machine taken us now?

Makarevitch: You know, I would never be able to be a politician. I cannot hide not only my thoughts, but my feelings either. In childhood we are taught by our families the basic concepts of what is good and what is bad. They are very simple and largely coincide with the main [bible] commandments: you should never steal, never tell lies, you cannot beat the weak. And so on. These are the concepts we have been growing up with. And everyone has a feeling for his country. And our ideas of what is good and what is bad are projected onto the behavior of the country.

I am not familiar with any “Bandera followers” or any nationalists. But I know Andrew, Svetlana, Paul, Sergey – I can give you twenty other names from different cities of Ukraine. These are my close friends, Russian-speaking citizens of Ukraine, with whom I have been friends for a few decades, and their attitude towards Russia and Russians has always been very good. How am I to look them in the eye now if their feeling for their country is telling them that they were lied to, and humiliated and robbed?

Journalist: And also slandered in an epic style…

Makarevich: Yes! If we are doing everything right, why are there so many lies? Every day I watch the news and listen to it with a thought: that was cool – it is impossible to tell a cooler lie. And the next day it turns out that it may be even cooler! Isn’t it possible to instill people with patriotism in more honest ways?

Our citizens have a feeling that Ukraine consists only of fascists, Bandera followers and the oppressed Russians who are crying for help and cannot wait for the moment when we take them under our protection. But let’s assume, for example, that everything was legitimate at the Crimean referendum. Then I have a purely theoretical question. If tomorrow the Tatar Republic holds a referendum and shows that most citizens want to secede from Russia, what will be the actions of our government?! I would like to know.

And I don’t understand: if we do not recognize as legitimate the new government of Ukraine, why do we recognize as legitimate the new government of Crimea? It was created within two days and in very much haste? I have many questions that no one can give me an answer to.

Journalist: And how did Makarevich feel at the march of “traitors” as a prominent element of the “fifth column”? [the allusion to President giving these names to those who disagree]

 

Makarevitch and Prohorova at a Peace rally on March 15, 2014

Makarevitch and Prohorova at a Peace rally on March 15, 2014

Makarevitch: Very well! I was going together with Irina Prokhorova [sister of oligarch Mikhail Prokhorov], the atmosphere was wonderful, we went forward to meet friends, and suddenly found ourselves leading the movement. Afterwards someone shouted to me “A jew who sold himself to Bandera”, but it is hard to offend me, I’m hardened.

Journalist: Facebook is now furiously splitting the society, there is so much mutual intolerance, hatred, malice…

Makarevitch: Yes, any priest will tell you that it is easier to unleash your demons than allow angels to come in. In the network there are many dark bugs now who are easy to crack though. For example, a man writes some rude thing and looks like he is friends with Andrey Maximov. I understand that Andrei Maximov cannot be friends with a character who makes three errors in two words, check up his page and see – of course this person is a fake!

Journalist: Why did musicians, veteran rockers turn out to be immune to the infection of loyalty that captured artists, producers, directors of museums?

Makarevicth: Well, I saw a different list, and these people are no less dear to me [there were two lists – “for” and “against”]. But I do not want to blame anyone. I suspect that many of those who signed the pro-government letter are dependent in their activities on the state budget, the Ministry of culture. I understand that it was difficult for them to make their choice.

Journalist: You are a well-known man, and are therefore a target. Do you have a feeling of discomfort?

Makarevitch: My feeling of discomfort is only because for decades we were trying to escape from slavery in our consciousness. And it took only a month to get to where we were before. Well, much preparation work had been done. But the big [propaganda] guns started firing only recently. And it is amazing how readily and rapidly all went back to the old rails. It is a nightmare feeling of dejavu.

Journalist: Do you have a sense of apprehension, fear?

Makarevitch: Fear is unproductive. Although, of course there is fear. Precisely because there is also a hope that things will not be as awful as they can be. And there’s also a horrible feeling of awkwardness. To the whole world.

Journalist: Is your inner circle also split?

Makarevitch: Of course. But although some of my friends adhere to a different position over Crimea, it hasn’t disrupted our friendship, thank God. In Crimea there are really a lot of people who want to go back to Russia. Because Ukraine brought the Crimea to a monstrous state, it’s true, I saw it. But we consider that things should have been done in a different way.

If everything goes without blood, God help us, in a few years historians will see it as a brilliant political move by Putin. But these moves do not consider people – they consider the benefits for the country, the empire, the ability to make use of the moment, take advantage of someone’s weakness, «squeeze» the most out of the situation. And this is true if you treat Ukraine as an enemy, a hostile territory. But for me this is a friendly territory, and if I see it being turned into an enemy in a brutal and cynical way, I cannot look at it in a quiet way…

Journalist: Will you make you write songs about it?

Makarevitch: I do not want to! Honestly, I don’t need this kind of incentives in order to write songs. In general, the song-writing process does not depend on what you want. Songs decide on themselves when to emerge. And singing is absolutely not the thing I want to do now.

Journalist: And what do you want?

Makarevitch: To wake up and see that all of it has been a terrible dream. The weather is good. It is spring…

http://www.novayagazeta.ru/arts/62796.html

Here is Makarevitch’s song called WHILE THE CANDLE STILL BURNS. It was written long ago but reflects very well the way he (and me) feel today:

There are days when your hands drop
And you have no words, no music, no strength,
In days like these I was in division with myself
And didn’t ask anyone for help

And I wanted to go where my eyes were taking me
To close my home and forget the key
But I believed that all is not lost
While the light isn’t out and the candle still burns…

And no one could make me sing
Silence is the beginning of all beginnings
But if my song straightens out its shoulders
How difficult will it be to make me silent then!

And though now only few days are left to me
The snow has fallen out and the blood is no longer hot
I will start again for a hundredth time
While the light isn’t out yet and the candle still burns…

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And these are the problems we discussed in times of peace:

October 13, 2010

The problem which recently caused much controversy here was my mentioning homosexuality in connection with pedophilia. It seems that both my correspondent and I did not quite understand each other, so I am placing our correspondence with him in this page for everyone to see what it’s all about.

The reader’s letter is actually very good so I hope he doesn’t mind it that I’m bringing it into the open discussion. Also you shouldn’t be surprised that these matters are raised within Michael Jackson’s vindication blog – and if you have patience to read it to the end you will probably understand why.

Helena, I just read your comments about me on your blog and I feel that I need to clear up something.

I am not one of those people advocating pedophilia.  I agree with much of the world that pedophilia is a serious and unnatural mental illness, not to mention a crime against humanity.  I am repulsed at the idea of adults taking advantage of innocent children in that manner; they are at complete opposite ends of the spectrum in terms of development, and any such relationship would be like fire and water.

I wish to assure you that that is not what I am advocating.  As an adult, I cannot fathom in any way, shape, or form how any adult could be attracted to children in that manner.  I think that any organization that promotes such an agenda should be burned to the ground, and that any pedophile should be castrated.

What I am advocating for is that young people should have the right to be able to accept themselves for who they are and to be true to themselves, without being bullied and harassed, which could lead to self-hatred and eventual suicide.  More and more young people are identifying who they are as pre-teens and should receive the best support and nurturing in terms of whatever orientation they are so that they can grow up to be healthy, well-adjusted adults, as I am now.

I wanted you to know that you and I are on the same exact page in terms of our views of pedophilia.  As for homosexuality, that is another ball game entirely.

I should also let you know that this whole fiasco, beginning with the multiple suicides and culminating in your last e-mail to me (as well as your comments about me on your blog), has put me into a state of depression that has lasted all weekend.  Luckily, I am working my way out of it now, but I want you to know how dangerous your ignorance, intolerance, and insensitivity can really be, especially to people like me on the Autism spectrum, who automatically soak everything up like a sponge and take things deeply to heart.

Dear X,

Thank you for your letter. It is no longer an explosive “How dare you” leaflet but is a clear statement of how you think and feel about ped-lia. You deserve the same approach from me so here is what I have to say.

I am sorry that I thought your letters could be the beginning of a ped-le attack on the blog. There have been numerous attempts to undermine us and it was always done in a covert way which made me think it could be another of those cases. It was evidently a coincidence that you wrote to me exactly at the time when we returned to the problem of ped-lia.

I am happy to hear that you feel so strongly against it. It gives me hope that gays will be in the forefront of the struggle against this menace as their own good image fully depends on how they position themselves on this issue.

I think that the best way to jointly fight the so-called man-boy love is to never agree to lower the age of consent for boys and probably raise it across the world by several years independent of the country (in some countries it is age 14 which is extremely low). Such an act will imply that no matter at what age teenagers identify themselves as gays – the first signs of which may indeed appear in their adolescence – their sexual relationships should not start until they reach a certain age, and everyone should accept this restriction willingly as there is simply no other way to go about it than that.

You understand that the present attitude to a 14-year old boy as both an adult and a child depending on the country introduces very much controversy into the problem as what is legitimate in one place is a horrible crime in another – so the best way to deal with it is to raise the age limit everywhere and thus do away with at least one of the problems.

A universally accepted high age limit for gay sex may be only for the better – if gay people are ready for a serious relationship it would be no problem for them to wait another couple of years before such a relationship starts. Knowing that homosexuality is accepted as such, but is not accepted until a certain age will make a lot of things much easier for all of us – some of the hysteria around it will subside and many problems related to it will just take care of themselves.

Youngsters will be given more time to realize their sexual identity, come to terms with it or revise it if their heterosexual side takes over, their parents will be given time to learn ways to accept it and global enthusiasm over starting sex at an early age (even ‘usual’ way) will be checked too. I am afraid that all the gender chaos we are going through now is because sex freely starts at an unnaturally early age, so that by the age of 15 youngsters – who have tried everything there is to try in sex –  are already tired of it and want something ‘new’.

Given that sex is actually a very intimate thing the fact that we’ve allowed it to be so commonplace, so accessible, so open for comparison and mockery by young and immature minds (in case of sex failures) has become a sure way to deprive sex of all its divinity – yes, divinity.

The almost 4000 year old ethical system of Zoroastrianism I adhere to says that sex is a divine act. I actually feel it in an absolutely natural way without anyone telling me, that is why the Zoroastrian ethics stuck to me so easily when I  happened to study it. And easily fused with my Christianity too (my nationality has nothing to do with it as I am a very rare bird even among my own people).

From the ‘old-fashioned’ way Michael Jackson behaved I have reasons to believe that he, as a true believer in God, also felt that sex is divine and that is why when he touched the hand of a girl he loved it was like fireworks going off for him.

Very few people can boast such an acuteness of sensation which first and foremost speaks to a person’s innocence – and the rarity and even archaism of such a feeling and the present lack of it seem to me the root of all this sexual chaos and controversy we are facing now.

Increasing homosexuality is probably a way for the nature to backfire on us for our complete loss of this sense of divinity, and not only in sex but life in general, and this makes the problem of homosexuality not the intimate problem of one particular teenager hit by it – no, it turns into a gigantic problem concerning all of us and taking its root in our total loss of contact with the divine.

If we look at the beginning and end of the long reason>>> result chain skipping all intermediate links in between, the conclusion will be that the unfortunate people who have been afflicted by homosexuality are actually the victims of the world as such which has lost all respect for God and true religion en masse.

By religion I don’t mean rituals – genuine religion for me is an understanding that there is a much bigger power that brought us into this world and it is only due to this power that you and I are still living at this particular moment of time. We need to live up to it and if we don’t adhere to its ethical laws we will not be able to survive. Everything in this world is interconnected and therefore we as a whole are responsible for what happened to you. And if we don’t do something about it now the infectious process will go on and none of us will be immune to its influence.

Zoroastrianism says that light and dark, innocent and corrupt,  wholesome and sick sides of human nature are present in each human being and it is within our power to shift the border between them in either direction. To shift it towards returning to one’s innocence requires very much effort but it is nevertheless possible. During some global disasters the spirit of many people undergoes immediate changes on a mass scale due to reconsideration of their former values and this is when the whole nature is recovering a little bit through such individual changes. This is probably why such disasters have become so common lately and they may very well stop if we clean our spirits ourselves without further hints from the above.

Zoroastrians believe that we come into the world to be the co-workers of the Absolute power and are therefore capable to make a change, but only if we preserve our childlike purity and don’t allow our divine spirit as a particle of the Absolute to be stamped out from our souls. From this point of view this power is predominantly inside us and it is a power so big that if we approach it for help it can change anything.

The world is ill and needs recovery and I practically had no hope it would ever happen. But as I am writing this and am simultaneously watching TV and the Chilean minors being taken up one after another from deep inside the earth, embracing their wives and children and saying that love is everything, and that they faced both devil and God and God has won, it feels almost like the world is being reborn in front of my eyes.

October 14, 2010

Isn’t it amazing that right at the time when we are looking into the deeds of one despicable creature of a man, a Chilean Victor Gutierrez, who is showing us the deepest lows to which a human being can possibly fall, other Chileans are demonstrating to us the very best a human being is ever capable of?

Not being able to find a proper word for it can I call it just human splendor? The greatness of human spirit and its immense strength? Triumph of humaneness? The valor and staunchness of both those who were trapped inside and those who were free on the outside? The miracle human beings are capable of when they are really together? The infinite power of Love and Hope?

They were still looking for the missing minors seventeen days after all contact with them had been lost! Anyone in their place would have given up long ago and the poor men would have died there just of thirst and hunger – but no, they were still drilling hoping to find someone alive and they won.

Amazing.

If there are any Chileans here let me send my biggest congratulations to them and their country. It is a fantastic victory and a huge encouragement to us all. You’ve shown human beings at their very best.

And you’ve shown us that anything is possible for a human being if he really wants it.

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 A NOTE ON DRAMATIC EVENTS WITHIN THIS BLOG

Over here you will find the account of the dramatic events that took place within this blog. Now the matter is over and done with, so I am taking it away from the limelight. However I am still keeping it as part of our history as history should never be erased or redone.  If it were not for history we would never learn our lessons – each his own.

This piece was formerly in the “About the blog” section:

May 17, 2012

Dear friends,

A month ago I changed the structure of this blog by giving some of my former co-editors the status of usual contributors to the blog. One of the reasons for that was that I could no longer bear responsibility for the individual views displayed by some of my former co-editors which are directly opposite to mine.

However since freedom of speech is a sort of a fixed idea with me, despite our huge differences of opinion over some matters I still give all my authors a free hand in expressing their thoughts as long as they do their vindication job for Michael Jackson.

But today I have learned of some activity undertaken by one of our authors which made me feel ashamed that in some people’s eyes he may be (erroneously) seen as a person officially representing this blog.

By the ‘activity’ I mean a TwitLonger message sent today by Sanemjfan to Deborah Kunesh, author of the Reflections On the Dance blog http://www.reflectionsonthedance.com/

The message is extremely ugly in style and contains ideas totally incompatible with the proud name of a Michael Jackson’s supporter. Michael Jackson’s advocates should have a clean code of ethics which this message has nothing to do with:

sanemjfan (@sanemjfan)

Dear Debbie Kunesh: When you blocked me from the ROTD page and your personal FB page a few weeks ago, I was initially dumbfounded, as I have bent over backwards to help you and give you information. You never tried to talk to me before you blocked me, and you ignored all of my attempts to reach you. Initially, I thought it was because I committed the sin of challenging your assertion that you didn’t want to launch the project when you did when in fact you teased fans for around a week prior to the launch by saying “Are you guys READY?”, “It’s coming soon!”, “It’s coming tomorrow!”, etc.

I felt that you blocking me was the ultimate confirmation of what many people have said about you, and I decided that you were gonna hear from me one way or another, so I blasted you in public because I knew you’d be forced to pay attention to me. You replied to your readers by saying that I had sent emails to people telling them to turn against you, and I thought that it was just some lie that you pulled out of thin air.

But then I went through my sent box and saw two messages that I sent recently to Sandy Corbin and Morgan Raimondi. In those messages, I merely explained to them what was going on, and why so many people were demanding answers from you. I saw Morgan commenting on your page talking about all of the “haters”, so I wanted to let her know my side of the story, since she was labeling me as a “hater” (even though she didn’t know it.) I also sent a message to Sandy to explain the situation to her as well. I assume that one or both of them forwarded you those messages, and that is what made you upset at me.

So I went back and read those messages that I sent, and I certainly did NOT try to turn them against you or slander you! All I did was say to them the SAME THING THAT I SAID TO YOUR FACE on the ROTD page! I said that you were being dishonest in saying you didn’t want to launch the project when you did, among the other personal responsibilities that you deflected.

I will post those emails so that everyone can see for themselves what I wrote and decide if I slandered you. There were no personal attacks against you, and all I did was criticize your actions, so please stop lying to your readers by telling them I slandered you! I think you were upset that I dared challenge you about the problematic launch of your project, and you’re using those emails as a pretext.

I challenge you to post the emails on your page and let your friends decide if you’re being honest! And if you have any other emails that you claim that I sent out, then do me a favor:

PUT UP OR SHUT UP!

Post them on your page, or if you don’t want to, then forward them to me so I can see for myself what I allegedly wrote about you!

As for your claim that I “told” you what to include on your website, you know damn well that’s not true! I suggested a lot of information for you because you said you were working on a “critic’s site” that would not be targeted at fans, but rather skeptics who wanted to ask the tough questions about MJ. I never TOLD you to include anything, so please stop lying to your readers.

When I said that I was spoon feeding you, it’s in regards to the questions you asked me last summer when you were working on the “Debunking the Demonic Myth” post,questions about the 2 jurors who lied and said MJ was guilty after he was acquitted, the prosecution’s timeline, the DCFS document (which was leaked after MJ was arrested), and other basic, rudimentary facts about the case that you SHOULD have known, but you didn’t, and out of everyone that you could have asked, YOU ASKED ME!

Those questions (plus the fact that you link to Wikipedia not once but TWICE on your website) are symptomatic of your lack of knowledge of a lot of basic facts about the allegations, and that’s why I offered you so much info for your critic’s site. If you’re going to be an MJ advocate, then you should have an understanding of the fundamentals of the case, and you should know where to look to find the answers. There’s no reason why you should have needed to ask me or ANYONE about those 2 jurors or the prosecutor’s timeline!

Here’s some advice for you: on your ROTD website, on the accusations page, in the “Get Informed” box, you like to Wikipedia on the following 2 links: “A Breakdown of the Trial for easier comprehension” and “Information on both cases”. Instead of linking to Wikipedia, why not take the time to research the facts and WRITE YOUR OWN BREAKDOWN OF THE TRIAL! Since you’re not running the ROTD facebook page anymore, you should have some free time on your hands, so you should put it to good use. It’s almost 3 years after MJ’s death, and your website is STILL linking to Wikipedia? I can understand if you weren’t that knowledgeable at first, but come on Debbie?!!

It’s 2012, and you’re STILL linking to Wikipedia??!!! Seriously??!!!!

Also, to help you become more knowledgeable about the 2005 trial, beyond what you already know from reading MJ Conspiracy (that’s if you read it instead of just skimming through it; Aphrodite Jones talked about those 2 jurors you asked me about, which makes me wonder why you had to ask me in the first place!), why don’t you start reading my trial summaries? I’ve already posted the summary of the opening statements, and this will also clear up your misconceptions on the prosecutor’s timeline that you asked me about last year.

And while you’re at it, you should read my summary of Jason Francia’s testimony. You know, one of MJ’s accusers who also got a settlement in the early 90’s. Neither you nor Dr. Moriarty have summaries of his testimony on your website or in her book, respectively, so I guess you both feel that he isn’t important enough for fans to know about, despite the fact that he could have sent MJ to jail in 2005 had the jury believed his claims!

As for your friend Dr. Moriarty, I have no regrets whatsoever for giving her book the flogging that it deserved! She should be ashamed of herself for such sloppy and half-hearted research! And you’re helping to peddle that book to gullible, unsuspecting fans who are desperate for anything positive on MJ! If Dr. Moriarty respected the fan community, she wouldn’t have cited Wikipedia, TMZ, Radar Online! And if you don’t believe me, check her list of source documents at the back of the book!

You claim to be a journalist, yet you threw away your journalistic integrity simply because you’re “friends” with the author! That’s so unprofessional! You didn’t give that book any scrutiny whatsoever!

Did I mention you at all in that review? NO!! So why were you so defensive about the book? Oh, that’s right, you’re friends with Dr. Moriarty! That explains it! You know you can’t refute any of the VALID criticisms I have about the book, so you tried to attack me personally by saying I had an ego! Let me ask you this: is there some under the table financial incentive for you to get a commission based off of sales of the book? If not, why would you try to rebut my review?

Dr. Moriarty completely reinforced the stereotype that fans are not capable of writing competently and objectively about the celebrities that they admire, and YOU reinforced the stereotype that fans of a celebrity will approve of ANYTHING written about that celebrity, regardless of how sloppy the research is, as long as it’s positive!

You claimed that I had a negative tone in that review, but that’s just another pretext. You would be upset at ANYONE who bravely called out Dr. Moriarty’s mistakes because you can’t handle the truth!

Compare my review to all of those reviews that gave the book 5 stars, and you’ll notice how short and without substance those reviews are! How can someone review a 500 page book in 5 or 10 sentences? Because the person didn’t scrutinize the book and is writing based off of emotions, that’s how!

You mentioned that I don’t have any industry contacts, and that I haven’t interviewed any of MJ’s friends and confidants; yet, despite that, I STILL have more respect in the fan community than you because people trust my judgment and work ethic! I am NOT “smarter” or “more intelligent” than anyone else, but I AM a hard worker, and the fan community notices it!

And I don’t go around blocking every single person who disagrees with me! I actually ENCOURAGE people to challenge me if they disagree with anything I say or write!

So in closing, I’ll wait for you to post all of this “evidence” that you have about me slandering you in emails, but I won’t hold my breath for it, because you don’t have any! I posted the emails that I sent out, and everyone will see for themselves that you’re lying about me! In fact, here is what you said about me a few weeks ago:

“What David fails to mention is that the time he keeps insisting that he was not being rude to me on the ROTD page, he was also sending around emails to other MJ fans as well as to my personal friends on FB, trying to get them to turn against me and saying nasty things about me. I’ve seen the emails. Maybe you should ask him about that. Would any of you entertain a person like this on your own pages?”

I said this earlier, but I’ll say it again:

PUT UP OR SHUT UP!

As for Sandy Corbin and Morgan Raimondi unfriending me, you can tell them that I COULDN’T CARE LESS! I didn’t send them friend requests in 2010; they sent ME friend requests! They wanted to meet up with me when they found out we live in the same city! I didn’t lose a single nanosecond of sleep over it! My friendship with them wasn’t mutually beneficial. They’re both a bunch of cowards for unfriending me and not hearing my side of the story! And you can tell them I said that!

Maybe the next time you need help with the allegations, they can help you! Or maybe your friend Dr. Moriarty can help you, since you believe that she’s such a great researcher!

What you don’t realize, Debbie Kunesh, is that by blocking me from the ROTD page, you’re not hurting me; YOU’RE HURTING YOUR READERS! I’ve posted a lot of good information on your page over the years, and you know this, but now all of a sudden I’m blocked?

You should learn to take personal responsibility for your actions instead of playing the victim card and “bobbing and weaving” and deflecting blame.

If I had known about your project in advance, I would have respectfully advised you not to go through with it because, as you’ve already stated, you did NOT have the Estate’s permission, and fans would justifiably question you about it.

Unlike you, Debbie Kunesh, I had the wisdom and the foresight to realize that you shouldn’t try to raise thousands of dollars to fund something that has not already been announced!

I don’t know why you act like you’re so surprised at the reaction you got. Did you REALLY expect to raise thousands of dollars from fans, and just put it away in a bank account until an MJ children’s hospital is announced? How long were you going to wait until you donated the money to another cause? 1 year? 5 years? 10 years?

One last thing: I would also suggest cleaning your bathroom tiles with some good old fashioned Pine-Sol cleaner, because once all of the dirt has been mopped away, you won’t have to worry about seeing any more images of MJ in your tiles!

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I do not know what terrible things Deborah Kunesh did to provoke such an ugly reaction from Sanemjfan but no matter what the reason was I must say that the manner in which Sanemjfan talks to other Michael Jackson’s supporters is totally unacceptable for a MJ advocate and vindicator.

As the administrator of this blog I do not want to have anything to do with this style and would like to state that Sanemjfan is not in any way authorized to represent this blog and be a sort of an official “voice” of it. He is one of its authors and is the only one who is responsible for what he says and does.

Dear Deborah Kunesh, I know your Reflections On the Dance site and find it admirable, so notwithstanding what you have (or haven’t) done to Sanemjfan as a contributor to the vindicatemj blog, please accept my sincere apologies on behalf of my blog. I feel that I bear partial responsibility for the ugly words said to you as it was me who invited this author to my blog after all.  Sorry again.

Helena

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  1. November 27, 2016 8:11 pm

    I underastand that the portraits were more symbolically representing their wished for allies..A triumvirate so to speak.She will run for the French pres. race.She is well known in Europe;.ultra right .

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  2. November 27, 2016 4:42 am

    “That french woman is Marie La Pen. A far right one.Really interesting to hear that she was at that party in Moscow” – wkatrina

    wkatrina, let me clarify. Marie Le Pen wasn’t at that party in Moscow. The party was apparently attended mostly by Russians and that photo was most probably made by a hidden camera. But my point is that our authorities are so openly supporting Trump, Le Pen and other politicians of the same kind that when the news came that Trump was elected our State Duma (deputies of parliament) met it with applause and even arranged a dinner party with champagne to celebrate the occasion. Yes, it was quite official.

    Draw your conclusions yourself.

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  3. November 19, 2016 4:27 pm

    I cannot recognize Trump from that pic. or painting.He never looked that good even when
    much younger.

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  4. November 18, 2016 8:03 pm

    That french woman is Marie La Pen. A far right one.Really interesting to hear that she was at that party in Moscow She is well known for her extreme views.Probably thinks her time is coming..

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  5. November 9, 2016 2:56 am

    Hello and my “congratulations” to you, guys.

    Patrick Reevell ‏@Reevellp 9h9 hours ago
    In #Moscow there is a Trump party in-full swing- pro-Kremlin activists gathered in a bar for the results. Giant portrait of Trump & Putin.

    More from the attendee of the Trump party in Moscow:

    Patrick Reevell ‏@Reevellp 8h8 hours ago
    Painting of #Trump, Putin and French far-right leader atTrump party in Moscow hosted by pro-Kremlin activists.

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  6. March 7, 2016 4:24 pm

    Helena you are a good brave soul. Again I had some problem with my e-mail, hope it got corrected. I wanted to tell that I saw Thomas Barrack on CNN, he was thome-thomes employer at the time Neverland was lost.He was praising Trump. Trump states he ,likes Putins way of governing anf worst of all he has a good lead in the polls.God save us he gets elected,

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  7. April 17, 2015 12:39 pm

    “I am the original kaarin22.And have followed this blog all along .Initially I told you about my health ot rather illhealth situation. Now it has taken a worse turn”-wkatriina22

    Kaarin22, I sure remember you very well and am very distressed to hear of your ill health and a change for the worse. You’ve had too much of it, and I ask all those who are friends to Michael to pray for you so that the malady goes away. Let the miracle happen and let love sent to you from every corner of the world help you overcome it. Cheer up, my dear friend.

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  8. t (@wkatriina22) permalink
    April 17, 2015 9:48 am

    Thank you and all collaborators of this blog.I understand that you Helena can not re- call every one, I am the original kaarin22.And have followed this blog all along .Initially I told you about my health ot rather illhealth situation. Now it has taken a worse turn.ThiS has made me all he more sad and sensitive to the horrible maltreatment of Michael, the injustice,the falsehoods, the icredible antagonism to this goood human being. To me this reaction is somehow strange and even incomprehensble.I am sure history in hindsight will notice the madness and greed.- I do know many already do, but still overtaken By greed some do not care about their own integrity.Let us pray justice will prevail.

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  9. December 6, 2014 3:50 pm

    Helena:,” they let the genie out of the bottle” , it is so true.Since Michaels death or maybe assassination the whole world has been infected by evil .Michael was a force for the good between peoples all around the world.

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  10. October 30, 2014 2:17 pm

    It’s good to have you back, Helena!

    NewRodrigo, I am not quite “back” yet as I am still overwhelmed by the huge trouble taking place in my country. Unfortunately people of the world are busy with their own problems and underestimate what’s going on here, or think that since the place is so remote it will not affect them. I am afraid it will. Don’t know how , but it will.

    “I was reading President Putin’s comments the other day, and about his disdain for America and placing the blame on them for a lot of the world’s problems.”

    As someone who is resentful of the way Michael Jackson was treated in his own country I cannot be a fan of the US and its hypocritical media for obvious reasons. But now I find myself resentful of the opposite process – the abhorrent and unjustified anti-Americanism artificially imposed on Russians by our regime and its puppet media. No matter which problem you take it’s “the US who is to blame for it”. It would be really hilarious if it weren’t so sad, and even tragic.

    Actually the situation with our brainwashed public is very similar to what was done to Michael Jackson. Our regime adopted the tabloid methods western media used for “entertainment” and making profits, and applied them to politics. And the end result is like a information nuclear explosion – our population is brainwashed to the very brim and believes the torrent of lies told by our TV now matter how crazy a lie is.

    For example, some time ago they believed a lie that the Ukrainian military took a 3-year old boy and crucified him in the central square of a town after driving the separatists away from it (the boy was allegedly the child of one of the separatists). Naturally nothing of the kind took place but the actress playing the part of the “witness” of the event was quite convincing and many were led to believe her. And our media presented in a sophisticated, seemingly “unbiased” way suggesting that they themselves didn’t know whether to believe it or not – the “witness” is there but the story sounds too horrible to be true, so they “left it for the public to decide”. But the problem is that they themselves staged this scene!

    Does it remind you of anything?

    It reminds me of numerous “witnesses” in Michael Jackson’s case where people like Jordan Chandler, Blanca Francia, Adrian McManus, etc. also told horrible lies about MJ and many people were also led to believe them though their stories were fictitious from beginning to end. The lies were reproduced on so massive a scale that people began to think that “there is no smoke without fire”.

    In terms of craziness I can compare the “crucified boy” with the story by Maureen Orth about a “blood bath” allegedly taken by MJ somewhere in the midst of Switzerland. Crazy? Crazy of course, but after prolonged brainwashing the public was ready to believe any lie about Jackson – and the media took advantage of it and went into a wild competition about who would tell a bolder lie about MJ. This brought about an avalanche of lies and a succession of “victims” who were always ready to come forward to accuse Jackson as the demand for their stories was too high – unnaturally, impossibly, incredibly high.

    When the western media was playing their dirty games with MJ, little did they know that someone unscrupulous was looking and learning from them, who would then apply the same method not to one man as the western media did, but to 40 million Ukrainians whom they termed “fascists” and accused of things they are doing themselves. The method turned out to be effective and universal – out of a hundred lies one or two get occasionally debunked, but the next day another hundred is told and in this torrent of lies the truth is being successfully drowned.

    It seems that when western media subjected Michael Jackson to their bloody harassment they let a genie out of the bottle. They proved that no matter how crazy a lie is, if repeated a hundred times it would work for millions and millions of people. And no one would be able to refute all of it as the sheer amount of lies is too big for their neutralization.

    Now the same is being done by our regime about every subject that is of any significance to them. As a result the population in Russia now lives in an alternate reality which has nothing to do with the truth. And talking to these people is nearly impossible. They juggle “facts” which are actually non-existent, and the only thing you can say in reply is that all their beliefs are untrue, which is immediately laughed off by them as impossible.

    But it is possible. In the same way the whole world believed in a fictional reality created around Michael Jackson which had nothing to do with the real him. And in both cases we face the same problem – the overwhelming power of lies and a big number of unsrupulous people who are ready to tell and repeat them.

    So funny or not, but if we learn how to beat lies in general, we will not only restore Michael’s image to his own clean, true and innocent self, but we will probably even save the world from wars and aggression. Save the world in the literal meaning of the word.

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  11. October 26, 2014 8:25 pm

    It’s good to have you back, Helena!

    And yes, it is a disappointment. I was reading President Putin’s comments the other day, and about his disdain for America and placing the blame on them for a lot of the world’s problems. Whether valid or not, his attitude has grown more firey and I wonder to myself, how long will it be for him to declare war with another country?
    Russia is filled with people looking up for answers and a path, and that man is leading them down the wrong way.

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  12. October 26, 2014 5:40 pm

    wkatriina22, thank you for caring about what’s going on here. I mean in my country. If our authorities look into this blog they won’t find anything to charge me with. But if they read my comments on the various articles in the Russian media, they will surely call me the “fifth column”. Now anyone who says a word of criticism about our policies is a “national traitor”, you know.

    And the worst part of it is that the people in Russia are so brainwashed by our brothel TV that they will tear into pieces anyone whom the authorities point their finger at. Actually they’ve unleashed a civil war here – a cold one but still very brutal and dramatic.

    You will probably be surprised to learn that many Russian fans of Michael Jackson (the man who had peace as one of his most cherished dreams) have also grown belligerent and have fallen victim to the official propaganda. I expected Michael’s fans to be more peace-loving and more immune to hate talk and lies.

    Actually the way people fall victim to lies is probably my biggest disappointement. I truly cannot understand why people don’t see the truth. Cannot understand it. As the English proverb has it – “If someone deceived you once, shame on him, if someone deceived your twice, shame on you.” How can people still believe someone if they have proof that this person lied to them not one, but several times?

    It is the same with those who persecute Michael. Sneddon lied to them, Dimond lied to them, Gutierrez lied to them, Larry Feldman lied to them, Stacy Brown lied to them, actually all of them plus the media lied to them a billion times, and they still believe them?

    Are we living in the age of the triumph of lies?

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  13. October 23, 2014 5:09 am

    Helena, it is some time since we heard from you. You will never be forgotten and I hope you are safe.Now we just must pray that things do not get even worse.-If authoties are interested in looking into VMJ that was started By you, they are bound to notice how you always wanted justice to prevail. Often it was not.

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  14. July 18, 2014 7:29 pm

    ——————-
    Helena I am so sad for the passengers and erybody concerned over the Malesian plane that got shot down.
    Please do not misunderstand my comments on the Murray-CNN interview.
    I have just learned of a nearby tragedy, where a person taken in By a rouse of sly falsehoods about a “treasure” but more so of a promise (false) of marriage.He is in danger of loosing his home ,is indebted, well things are as bad as can be.It is a person so fragile as result of exteme abondonment and abuse in childhood that has led him to this.Due to the fragility of his personality there is nothing I can do.To suddenly deprive him of this fantasy could very well lead to suicide.This is ofcourse beside the point of Michael. Maybe a thin link-if in childhood bonding and acceptance does not occur sufficiently the person easily becomes a victim again

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  15. July 18, 2014 4:09 pm

    Guys, let me express my deep condolences to the families and friends of the passengers on the Malaysian plane shot down over Ukraine. Since I believe that it was the doing of the separatists who downed it with the arms supplied by my country I feel that I am in a way also responsible for what happened.

    They thought they had hit a Ukrainian transport plane and boasted about it in their social network accounts, but when they realized that it was a civilian plane the information was quickly erased. However screen shots of the messages had already been made and Russian TV and the Russian official news agency ITAR-TASS had already reported this news. Now they say the opposite, but this is no surprise – denying the obvious is the usual thing here.

    I wish people like me could change something in this madness but I am afraid we can’t. I am very sad and sorry about it.

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  16. May 6, 2014 4:21 am

    Helena, your blog has and is a monument to Michael and his message of piece and love. It has United people of all colours, races and nationalities around the world.Whatever happens it will remain. It makes me cringe to think that you could not continue anymore.Words fail me.

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  17. May 5, 2014 6:39 am

    “Helena did you know that the internet is considered an organ for the CIA.”- W

    W, if the CIA (or anyone) is looking I don’t care. Do you think that our secret service is not checking up every single entry – here or anywhere else? I have no doubt about it either. Each word we say and everything we do is under surveillance – from every possible side. But we don’t do anyone any harm so what’s the point of fearing that someone is looking?

    But what is being planned for Russian internet users (at least according to the preliminary information I’ve read) is creation of isolated Internet space which, as I understand will not allow me to write in this blog anymore – because wordpress is a US hosting service. If this happens I will most probably not be able even to see the blog any longer.

    If it were just a different-type of Internet, and both (the old and new) were accessible to all of us it would be okay. But the way it looks the plans are to fully isolate us.

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  18. May 1, 2014 4:02 pm

    Helena did you know that the internet is considered an organ for the CIA. Special warning against use of Google..So why did I have constant problems with my e-mails, totally peronal anr related to Michael.There is more .

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  19. April 24, 2014 10:40 am

    An update on the situation here. Writer Boris Akunin wrote an open letter to the bosses of “Yves Rocher” company today:

    On April 24, the trial of Alexei Navalny, leader of the Russian democratic opposition, began in Moscow. This event continues a series of fabricated trials by which the authoritarian regime is trying to eliminate from political life the bold and consistent fighter against the government corruption.

    Alexei Navalny is now under house arrest due to your case initiated by your company’s complaint where you accused him of financial fraud. This way you have already helped the Putin regime to isolate Navalny from the society, and his conviction in your case will put him behind bars.

    The name of your world-famous company is used by Russian authorities to discredit the opposition in the eyes of international community.

    I don’t know why you agreed to participate in this ugly game – it is probably because your refusal would have led to serious problems for your large business in Russia.

    Subsequently, probably being ashamed of what you did you withdrew your complaint, but it didn’t change anything.

    The fact that the Russian Prosecutor’s office ignored the withdrawal of the claim does not surprise anyone in Russia – we have long been accustomed to the Kafkian style of our repressive system.

    But the most surprising thing is that the company “Yves Rocher” pretends that what’s happening now has nothing to do with it.

    Well, it has.

    Please be aware that if due to the silence of the very well-known French company the most famous Russian opposition leader goes to jail, the name of “Yves Rocher” will become a symbol of shame.

    Do not keep silent.

    Express your position publicly.

    It is clear that profit and business are very important and that you don’t want to quarrel with the vengeful and powerful Russian authorities.

    But remember that you are not only businessmen, but also citizens of the country which the world is accustomed to associate with the home of freedom and human rights.

    Please also remember that there are times when silence is a crime – crime du silence as Jean-Paul Sartre used to say.

    Boris Akunin, writer

    http://echo.msk.ru/blog/b_akunin/1305842-echo/

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  20. April 16, 2014 1:31 am

    “Its downright fascism.” – Sina

    Sina, I wish my compatriots could understand it. Only some realize what’s happening. Thank you for your words of support.

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  21. Sina permalink
    April 15, 2014 4:59 pm

    Helena I have been reading your updates on the situation in your region and about your leaders actions. Its downright fascism.
    I feel sorry for your country and the people. Its like you are back in time with a totalitarian regime and everything that goes with it. The situation in Ukraine is a bold transparent provocation and powerplay and no one knows how it will end.
    From the outside it looks very scary, living in it you must feel powerless.
    But don’t give up. I had never thought in my lifetime I would see glasnost or wende, or Mandela freed or the criminal regimes of Videla, Pinochet fall . Yet it happened. This is a tough one ., a man with a napoleon complex who wants to go down in history as a hero and savior of his people. But this too will pass.
    Please take care. Fighting for justice is a must but there is not much in the world worth dying for. Stay safe!

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  22. April 15, 2014 1:11 pm

    Each new day here is crazier than the previous one. Now the photos of Russian protesters against our government’s activity in Ukraine were placed on the central railway station in Simferopol, the capital of Crimea. The board has a picture of Uncle Sam crossed in the middle and a notice on top of it:
    “BEWARE! AGENTS OF THE WEST”


    I can’t believe that it is happening.
    Actually I very much hope that this is some crazy fake. If someone proves to me that it is, I’ll pull it down.

    P.S.
    No, it isn’t fake. Here is another proof of it:

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  23. susannerb permalink*
    April 12, 2014 8:13 am

    Helena, this shows perfectly the contrasting attitudes of people in conflicts – the ones that fuel the conflict by presenting those with different opinions as enemies, and the ones that take peace-making steps toward their so-called enemies and so defuse the conflict.
    Does any politician or any of those following them think about which of the two ways would be more successful for human co-existence? If the population of all countries would act like these Ukrainian students, politicians would have no chance to impose their conflicts on the people.

    And I’m happy we find Michael again on the right side!

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  24. April 11, 2014 2:05 pm

    “Thank you Helena for your extensive coverage:Where there is life there is hope..” – W

    W, hope is always there. But each new day brings new incredible revelations. Look at this picture of a bookstore called “The house of books”. It has a banner on it showing the photos of Russians who oppose the campaign of our authorities against Ukraine.

    The banner reads: “THE FIFTH COLUMN. ALIENS ARE AMONG US”.

    The one who shared this photo on Facebook left a cheerful comment: “Soon they will hang out a schedule of burning at stake. Follow the news”.

    The feeling is totally surreal.
    * * *

    And while division among people is promoted in Russia the students from Western Ukraine addressed the Russian-speaking population of Eastern Ukraine and Russia:

    “We have no hate for you. We are a multi-national region and we live in peace with each other. Please don’t form an opinion of us by watching only Russian TV. Don’t let Putin cheat you. Ukraine, be united. All of us children of Ukraine.”

    CAN YOU GUESS WHOSE MUSIC THEY SELECTED FOR THEIR PEACE AND UNITY CALL?

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  25. April 9, 2014 10:15 am

    Thank you Helena for your extensive coverage:Where there is life there is hope..

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  26. April 9, 2014 5:18 am

    “Protect us from protectors” Bertold Brecht.

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  27. April 8, 2014 3:21 pm

    Guys, I am terribly sorry for being away again. Every day I promise myself that I will finish the post I’ve started and every new day makes it unable for me to focus on what I’m writing.

    For you to be able to understand the reality of today’s Russia (for some of its citizens) here is a list of quotes from our journalists and politicians https://www.facebook.com/events/225562954305800/permalink/228626473999448/:

    Quote 1. Zhirinovsky (parliament deputy): “Millions of children dream of living in orphanages”

    Quote 2. Churov (head of the Elections Committee): “Why am I regarded to be a difficult opponent? Because I never lie”.

    Quote 3. Peskov (President’s aide): “Every wound of a riot policeman should be answered by spreading the protesters’ liver over the asphalt”.

    Quote 4: Serdukov (former Defense Minister): “There is no crisis in the military construction. We have an order not to notice the crisis”.

    Quote 5: Kiselyov (journalist): “I think that it isn’t enough to penalize gays for homosexual propaganda: they should be forbidden to be donors of blood and sperm, and their hearts in case of car accidents should be buried in the ground or burned”.

    Quote 6: Kiselyov (journalist): “Russia is the only country which is able to turn the US into radioactive ashes”

    Quote 7: Mamontov, journalist (about Pussy Riot?): “Harassment of the Russian Orthodox Church began in 2012”

    Quote 8: Skoibeda (journalist): “I sometimes wish the ancestors of today’s liberals had been used by Nazis for making lamp shades. We would have fewer problems now”.

    Quote 9: Matvienko (speaker of the Senate): “Protesters come to their marches in white clothes and hidden razors. They cut themselves and spill blood on each other in order to blame the police for beating them up!”

    Quote 10: Yarovaya (parliament deputy): “The opposition is a bunch of people who are no different from terrorists and criminals, and who feed from the same hands”.

    The above hit list of quotes is suggested for a sort of a black humor contest at a TRUTH RALLY to be held on April 13, 2014. We will be selecting the most smashing statement out of the ten recently voiced. Though the whole thing is supposed to be a kind of fun, in my humble opinion the quotes about the liver spread over the asphalt, radioactive ashes and lamp-shades made out of liberals’ skin qualify more for an international court.

    The above statements are nominated for a “Golden diarrhea” award. I will tell you which quote has won – if my liver is not spread over the asphalt of course (a joke, guys).

    Nothing bad is likely to happen as the rally was agreed with the authorites and even much earlier than the 10 days required for such a peaceful get-together.

    “Father, Forgive Them; They Don’t Know What They Are Doing…”

    P.S. Russian readers are requested not to barrage me with their emails. These quotes are in open access and please don’t find fault with me for what these people say. It is the people of your liking, not mine.

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  28. March 29, 2014 12:50 pm

    Despite limited possibility to voice an independent opinion now, yesterday there was an unexpected instance of some. It came in the form of buffoonery that took place at the “Golden Mask” Theatre Festival which celebrated its 20th anniversary. Here is an account of the eye-witness of the event:

    The “Golden Mask” celebrated its 20th anniversary at a grand evening at the Vakhtangov theatre. The central part of the celebration was a political cabaret directed by Kirill Serebrennikov. The brilliant Alexej Devotchenko wearing a decrepit jacket and a battered hat quietly came from behind the scenes with a “NO” poster in his hands. He then turned into a sparkling cabaret artist in a white tailcoat surrounded by dancing girls in feathers and policemen with their truncheons…

    And Alex sang! He sang about people who don’t give a damn about anything at all, spectators whose only interest in life is a good laugh and drink, about the theatre that shows a beautiful ‘nothing’, and in all this crazy schizophrenic entourage his face shone with such an expression that it was impossible not to shout “Bravo” to him.

    The culmination of the scene was the emergence of “Orthodox activists” from among the audience jumping one after another on stage and singing with their ringing voices the anthem to “good” to the tune of “Tomorrow Belongs To Me» reminding you of the “Cabaret” movie and its famous Nazi scene in a pub.

    It was cool, guys. It was so cool that the stalls were scared. And when Alex began reading out the message addressed by “cultural workers” to the “Secretary-General” to express support for “the square of the hypotenuse equaling the sum of the squares of the other two sides of a triangle”, and that all those who do not agree should please seek happiness in other countries, the stalls subsided completely. And not all those present had a desire to applaud to that number…

    The “Golden Mask” national theatre award said “NO”. And we were witnesses to it.

    I haven’t seen the celebration as it was naturally not broadcast on TV or anywhere, but this amateur YouTube video gives some idea of what it was like:

    Its highlights:
    – the protester in shabby clothes throws away his “NO’ poster, says that politics is not the theater’s business, sits at a piano and sings that “there are so many good things besides politics – flowers, dogs, cats” and people come to the theatre “not to listen to our preaching”. And “no one wants the drama of politics, there are so many much nicer things to do”….

    – he sings that “people are indifferent and foolish. They like to be entertained and dislike thinking with their own heads. And no one wants drama – there are so many nice and funny subjects to discuss. They come to the theatre not for your sadness…” A dance scene with Cossacks, girls in feathers and policemen with their truncheons.

    – at some point he says: “Dear ladies and gentlemen, please turn on your mobile telephones. We remind you that photo and video shooting of the event is very much welcome. Checking up your emails and updating your social network accounts while watching this event is obligatory for anyone who wants to keep up with the times”.

    – three girls sing in chorus: “Leave a comment” and “Maximal repost”. The first girl: “Why don’t you just stop this hysteria and simply love you motherland? Motherland raised and educated you. And what did you do for Motherland? You are dissatisfied with everything, you go to rallies to protest… So stop this hysteria and love your motherland”. Chorus” “Leave a comment. And if you haven’t made a photo you shouldn’t have come at all”.

    – the second girl: “So you had your theatre closed? You should be happy about it. People need a Russian psychological professional state repertoire theater and not these experiments….”

    – the third girl: “I’m so sick and tired with everything non-appealing to the eye. These deputies, these invalids, these gays, these immigrants. Why can’t we have Benedict Cumberbatch instead of these Tajiks [guest workers]? And why should I be worried about some prisoners, orphans and other people’s laws? I have no time for it and don’t want it. I don’t want anything at all. And nothing will ever change in this country. I forgive you all. Go to hell. Smile, smile, smile.

    – the host reads the appeal addressed to the “General secretary”: “When the very foundations of our existence are endangered we, the art workers of our country, cannot remain indifferent to…….. we sincerely hope that nothing will threaten…… we give our firm support for the position of our General Secretary…….. here is a place to sign it ….. though of course as cultural workers you have the right to an independent opinion….. and you have the right not to sign…. after all the whole world is open to you and you may feel more comfortable in another country…..

    – the activists from the audience sing: “The devil’s circle is narrowing around us… Actresses, repent and cover up your legs and breasts…. This temple will not see your shame… Our future is the theatre of the good… We’ll raise our art from the dirt it is in… This is our cross…”

    Well, all this is buffoonery of course, but now you have at least a comic idea of the main forces at play here.

    This page will be updated with this information.

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  29. March 29, 2014 10:14 am

    A special note for my VMJ friends.
    Here is a point of view of one of our (few) independent politicians, Boris Nemtsov on the current situation:

    THERE WILL BE NO WAR

    “If we proceed from an almost indisputable thesis that Putin annexed the Crimea for the sake of strengthening his own power and not for protecting the Crimean Russians from any harassment, there will be no invasion into Eastern Ukraine. Because a war is where people are killed and wounded, and this means a decline in ratings. 75% citizens of Russia are against war. The provocations are necessary firstly, for blackmailing the West and encouraging restrictions and sanctions, and secondly, for exerting influence on the elections of the Ukrainian President. But there will be no war.”

    March 26, 2014

    I think that he is right. The idea of the whole Crimean campaign seems to be totally different from what we thought before. It isn’t a war per se and not a world war all the more so. Our leader was simply so frightened by the Maidan revolution in Kiev that made a preemptive move not to let the “infection” spread over Russia. And the ultimate goal of the move is naturally stifling the newly born Ukranian democracy.

    In fact the main idea behind this Crimea ‘adventure’ seems to be intimidating Russians into thinking that any form of internal protest inevitably leads to the break-up of the country and hence the need to turn Ukraine into a sort of a lesson for Russians. The goal of the lesson is to demonstrate the “horrific consequences” of any internal protest against the government, even if the protest is justified. These include a “revolution” and a “civil war” both of which are the greatest frights of Russians ever since our own revolution and civil war in 1917-1918.

    Hence the fright of most people here that protests can only “destabilize” and hence their look at those who criticize as “national traitors”.

    Our big political strategists are evidently not afraid of any sanctions because further isolation of Russia will be only to their advantage. If Russia is encircled by “enemies” it will enable them to set a new iron curtain for “defending” the population. And from this point on there will be an open road to doing away with the “fifth column” and national traitors” who dare to criticize. These ideas and words were already voiced by our President in his recent speech and will directly affect anyone who has the courage to voice a protest. This will naturally concern yours truly too.

    I just thought that you should know.

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  30. March 28, 2014 1:43 pm

    “I also thought the reason that the MJ trial got so much coverage in the United States , was to distract people from the war we were in.”- Nan

    Sure it was a distraction. Politicians never stop at using the dirtiest methods possible in order to cover up for their ways.

    I hate politics.

    I hate politicians’ dirty ways but not politics or policies which can be carried out by ordinary people. You will agree that Michael was the best ambassador for his country. Similarly each of us is also an ambassador of our nation. And it seems that we can find common ground much better than politicians do.

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  31. March 28, 2014 1:27 pm

    “I live in the U.S. and was dumbstruck when my country invaded Iraq , for no reason, , yet people were shouted down who stated the obvious. You and your country are in my prayers” – Nan

    Nan, thank you for your prayers – we need them very much. The very big difference between your and our situations is that the war in Iraq did not change the system in the US, while the latest events in my country do.

    Quoting one of our history professors who was recently fired from his University for his views (which I am repeating here) the changes in our country remind him of Italy in 1922 and will very quickly turn us into something like North Korea.

    I don’t want to live in North Korea and don’t want part or whole of Ukraine to turn into it either, and the huge possibility of all this happening now is the saddest part of it.

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  32. Nan permalink
    March 28, 2014 11:04 am

    I also thought the reason that the MJ trial got so much coverage in the United States , was to distract people from the war we were in.
    I could never understand why this BS trial was getting so much airtime, and yet , our people, and others, were giving up their lives , with no explanation as to why we were there.
    I hate politics.

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  33. Nan permalink
    March 28, 2014 11:01 am

    Helena , my heart goes out to you. I live in the U.S. and was dumbstruck when my country invaded Iraq , for no reason, , yet people were shouted down who stated the obvious.
    You and your country are in my prayers

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  34. March 27, 2014 9:07 pm

    I also want to say that currently I am not writing about Michael because I read everything there is to read about the situation with Ukraine, try to learn the real truth and leave my comments everywhere I can in an attempt to make people see reason.

    So my staying away from the blog does not mean that I abandoned Michael – I did not! – and if the need for me really arises I will be there for him again.

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  35. March 27, 2014 8:49 pm

    Dear friends, this page was created for topics unrelated to Michael Jackson. However the moment I wrote it I realized that no matter what subject I raise it will inevitably come to Michael again.

    Yes, even the unusual subject I will speak about here will also be related to Michael’s values and the way he lived his life – I mean being honest with oneself, making a change and standing by what you believe no matter what. In fact it was Michael who taught me these principles and now I am unwilling to give them up.

    The little change I can probably make is tell those who read this blog that in this time of extreme embarrassment over Russia’s behavior towards Ukraine there are Russian people who are not supportive of the shameful processes taking place in the country, and do not approve the brutal methods of our government as well as the nationalistic frenzy the rest of the population fell into.

    Unfortunately at the moment those who are in dissent are the absolute minority, and I am one of them.

    A protest for us has never been easy, but now it has become really dangerous. Everyone who protests risks to be labelled a national traitor, the fifth column or an extremist deserving criminal prosecution as in accordance with the recently passed law (to come into effect on May 9, 2014) anyone criticizing the way the Crimea was joined to Russia can go to prison for up to 5 years (http://www.rbcdaily.ru/politics/562949990932895). As usual this criticism will be hypocritically named “calls for breaking the territorial integrity of the country”.

    I am not a kamikaze but still want to remain an honest person, so while balancing between the two will try to familiarize you with the sadness, absurdity and fear of having to live in an atmosphere of disagreement with those who are in power in my country. So even if the dissent doesn’t take us anywhere this way you will at least know what it was like for us and that we have been trying.

    As an example below here is an account of a 27-year old woman who took the challenge and did not give in though now she is risking to never be able to find work. She tells a story of going to the University of People’s Friendship in Moscow for a job interview and being bold enough to mention her position over the Crimea. See what came of it – the picture is both humorous and scary (please open the page to read the story).

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  36. March 21, 2014 4:16 pm

    “If you intend to respond to this message with the same condescension and demeaning judgment that you’ve used in the past, save it. I am not interested in debating someone who does not possess the facts or is ignorant to reality.” – Free spirit

    Free spirit, I am not going to discuss homosexuality with you or anyone because several years ago I promised AutisticOne not to speak about it any more and I am still keeping to my promise.

    All I will say is this:

    1) I don’t put an equal mark between pedophilia and homosexuality

    2) I still feel sorry when teenagers or young people realize that they are gay. Small children can’t realize that they are “gay” because they have no concept of sex at all

    3) the reasons for their turning gay are numerous and poorly studied because all real scientific research has been stopped. Over here it is still going on.

    4) I haven’t seen the video of our President kissing the belly of a boy because I generally don’t watch our TV and actually doubt that he ever did – he is too straight laced for such frivolities

    5) I am unhappy with many other things our President is doing

    6) gay people are not harassed here and it is only promotion of homosexuality which is frowned upon by our people. We are backward, you know.

    7) if some gay people are harassed here it is only when they go on rallies with heterosexual people who are dissatisfied with the authorities

    8) On May 6 last year people went on a rally to call for clean and fair elections, but were dispersed by police. Numerous people were detained and kept in prison for a year and a half just awaiting trial. Eight of them were recently sentenced to up to 4 years. The crime they committed was pushing the policemen or kicking them when they were dragged along the pavement.

    9) This will give you an idea that we have other matters beyond homosexuality to worry about

    10) When we are denied the basic right to protest against fraud at elections, for example, and have a thousand other problems to deal with, it is a bit annoying to constantly hear that our only problem is homosexuals. This annoyance in our faces is often mistaken for our attitude towards gays.

    11) If we haven’t been constantly reminded of this problem no one including gays would even notice it because the problem is virtually non-existent here (or was so until now). The whole Bolshoi theatre is full of gays, so what? As to gay marriages our church will never agree to it, so forget about it.

    12) We ourselves have many other things to attend to. Mere survival, for example. Or our President turning our closest neighbors and friends into our worst enemy and putting us on the brink of war with them.

    13) You have evidently settled all other problems in your country which is why homosexuality is the only burning issue left. My congratulations to you. Our situation is different, so while you are ordering your champagne we are still thirsty for plain water.

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  37. FreeSpirit permalink
    March 20, 2014 9:50 pm

    Dear webmaster,

    I’ve recently come across your long-standing conversations with a gentleman named AutisticOne and I must take issue with your ignorant and highly misguided judgment of both him and the gay community as a whole, as well as your extreme aversion to the reality of “gay kids,” which you explicitly claim you “do not believe in.” I am highly disgusted by your attitude and must address it, especially in light of the offensive declarations made by your country’s president during the Olympics and the recent passage of a bill in Uganda that makes homosexuality punishable by life in prison or even murder.

    You stated in October 2010 that you created this particular personal page to address issues that deviate from the purpose of your blog. Well, I am posting this comment on this particular page to further address these issues myself.

    I have no issues with your blog or its purpose; I am all in favor of educating people as to the truth about Michael Jackson’s innocence, having been a lifelong fan of his. However, when you begin to deviate from your purpose and self-righteously condescend and demean people’s dignity without regard for the truth, you’ve officially crossed a line and I must address that.

    First of all, I am aware of your unfortunate experience from your past, which has obviously influenced your fight against pedophilia, in which I am totally beside you. However, your experience seems to have badly clouded your judgment, damaged your eyes, and rendered you blind to reality.

    Secondly, you, being a Russian, seem to make the same mistake that the majority of your people (including your President) do: that homosexuals are also pedophiles. That I must take serious issue with because it is not at all true.

    Thirdly, you’ve exhibited extreme self-righteous judgment towards AutisticOne and the gay community as a whole. That is unacceptable and totally hypocritical of you, given your blog’s overall mission and intent.

    I don’t know what page you are on, but there is a single word to describe you: WRONG. Your beliefs and opinions are invalid because they contradict actual reality. You are entitled to your own opinions, but not your own facts.

    At one point, you told AutisticOne that you believe that children raised by gay parents will “have no choice but to be gay,” assuming, as you do, that being gay is a choice. Being a gay man myself who was raised by a Mom and a Dad with no outside influences of homosexuality (I was practically smothered with heterosexuality as a child and didn’t meet a gay person–a fellow student–until high school), I can state with absolute certainty that your “belief” is a bold-faced LIE. If I was raised by a Mom and Dad, why didn’t I “choose” to be straight like them? Simple: because I “had no choice but to be gay.” No one influenced me to be this way; it is who I am and I should not have to give you a lengthy explanation as to why. It just is. If you cannot or will not accept that as reality, then this conversation has ended now.

    Another time, you told AutisticOne that if he did not marry a woman and have children, then his parents would “never see their grandchildren.” That sounds like emotional blackmail to me, which is a form of abuse. Excuse me, but when did any of our parents become guaranteed to even have grandchildren in the first place? One word: NEVER. Secondly, since when did any of us humans become obligated to “owe” our parents grandchildren? Again: NEVER. Did it never occur to you that some straight couples are just fine without having children and that their parents are just fine with that?

    Your “belief” is highly self-righteous and condescending because you are not taking into account the feelings of others and you are passing judgment on them as a result. You can call it anything you like, but the fact is that it is still judgment by definition. You need to get through your head the fact that what may work for you will not work for everyone else. You may call your viewpoints “beliefs,” which are subjective opinions, but you express them as though they were objective facts, in which you are wrong.

    In your last conversation with AutisticOne on June 23rd, 2011, you told him that you “felt sorry” for him and could “not feel happy” for him being happy with who he is, at which point he again defended himself against your judgment, to which you responded that you were “not talking about homosexuality at all.” Well, if that is the case, then what exactly about him did you feel sorry for during that conversation?

    As I understood it, AutisticOne was asserting how happy he was being himself after a fellow reader commented that he/she had been judgmental towards gays and was apologizing for such, to which you responded “I cannot” [feel happy for you] “as I feel sorry for you. Is feeling sorry for people a crime?” When he defended and asserted himself against your condescension, you seemed to backtrack and claim that you were not “discussing homosexuality at all” and were trying to save face. Again, what exactly was it about him for which you felt sorry if not for homosexuality? It was clear to me that you indeed felt sorry for him for being homosexual and were indeed discussing such.

    To answer your question, it is indeed a crime for you to feel sorry the way you do because there is nothing of him (or any gay person) to feel sorry about. You are passing judgment on him for being the person that he was born to be. Worse, you are sugar-coating that judgment in order to hide it, like a wolf in sheep’s clothing. If anything, I feel sorry for you because you cannot see past your bubble of superficial reality.

    And lastly, in reference to your incorrect belief that there is no such thing as “gay kids,” I am here to tell you that there is indeed such a thing. Everyone around me in my childhood knew I was gay even before I acknowledged it as an adult. This includes my family and my school peers. My mannerisms, my taste in music, my interest in girl’s toys, and my attachment to males gave it away. To this day, everyone says to me, “Oh please, we all knew.”

    Maybe you are sheltered from reality in your country, but in mine, everyone with a modicum of intelligence and a clear head is well aware of the fact that children know from a young age that they are gay. They may not know the definition of it, but they know innately that something about them is different. The constant negative word-of-mouth to which they are subjected day to day can wreak havoc on their self-esteem because they are not being unconditionally accepted by society. That, my dear, is a crime against children and humanity.

    I can tell you that as a young child, I knew I was different. The problem was, unlike today, no one around me was modeling or openly endorsing homosexual behavior out in the open. I was exposed only to heterosexuality in everyday life, from which I deduced quite accurately that my own innate self was taboo. It isn’t so much anymore, but it still is a touchy subject, made even more volatile by people like you.

    I quite honestly found your hysterical reactions to the idea of “gay kids” very amusing. That is an indication of a person with serious mental issues who refuses to address both changing their long-held beliefs and their deep-seated denial, which seems to be fueled by your past demons and your own country’s ill-founded beliefs. Numerous psychologists and sex therapists (experts) have informed me of this. And your pathetic attempts to rationalize AutisticOne’s struggles with his sexuality as being something other than his true innate self are cruel and inhumane.

    I find it extremely ironic that you possess these volatile viewpoints about gays in light of a recent statement you made in your February 13th article about Woody Allen’s molestation accusations: “As someone who regards truth to be absolute like light, I think that truth is attainable in all cases, only you need to work hard enough for bringing out its light.”

    I am laughing my head off after reading that statement because you’ve demonstrated monster hypocrisy and an extreme lack of integrity and consistency with that one statement. Obviously you don’t think the truth is attainable in all cases because you have not done any form of work to bring out the light of truth in the case of homosexuality. In fact, you’ve vehemently fought against it out of sheer stubbornness and blind fear at being proven wrong whenever someone has challenged you and backed up their argument with facts. Worse still, you’ve cut and run from the arguments most of the time like a spoiled child in an attempt to save face.

    That is, again, an indication of a mentally-ill person who refuses to wake up to reality. Maybe it is due to your unfortunate experience, your religious beliefs, or even the country in which you live. But in the end, you must understand that not everyone in the world shares your ill-placed beliefs and rightly finds them to be extremely demeaning and condescending when you express them so self-righteously.

    It is ironic that your country and its president believe that gays are also pedophiles because your very president once demonstrated the very behavior that he claims to be very much against. In 2006, while walking through a tourist-filled Kremlin courtyard on live television, he was shown to be lifting up the shirt of a young boy and kissing the boy’s bare belly. I saw it on television and was aghast.

    I don’t know about your country, but in mine, such behavior is considered completely inappropriate if done by a stranger; you risk being beaten and arrested. If the president had done that to my child, you can bet your bottom dollar that he’d suffer the theft of his family jewels. Your president’s actions speak much louder than his words and are a blatant indication that he is guilty of the very behavior that he claims to abhor. In other words, he is acting out his own repression. You know the saying: “Methinks he doth protest too much.” Those who speak the loudest against something are often guilty of that very behavior. That is a statistical fact: homophobes are often found to be repressed homosexuals who hate themselves. In that regard, people who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.

    Because of your blindness and ignorance to reality, the alleged “concern” and “compassion” that you’ve constantly preached to AutisticOne is ill-advised, ill-founded, and ill-placed; or, in layman’s terms, disingenuous. That makes it highly condescending and demeaning to us gays who know ourselves better than you think you know us. It is insulting to our intelligence.

    When you live in a world of your own creation, you are never wrong. The sooner you accept the cold, hard reality that you are wrong and come out of your own bubble of superficial reality, the sooner you will get well.

    If you intend to respond to this message with the same condescension and demeaning judgment that you’ve used in the past, save it. I am not interested in debating someone who does not possess the facts or is ignorant to reality.

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  38. John permalink
    October 10, 2011 11:18 pm

    This article might be of interest to anyone here who has participated in the discussion brought up by AutisticOne:

    http://www.huffingtonpost.com/Amelia/gay-children_b_954350.html?ref=fb&src=sp&comm_ref=false

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  39. September 19, 2011 10:59 pm

    Helena,

    Check email. Sending something which you may find of interest.

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  40. July 4, 2011 12:25 am

    Thanks, Helena.
    You right about Arviso’ case, that’s so ridiculous, but, for us, that know all about. For the rest os thw world, is diferent, because the media still selling the false history that Michael was find not guilt to be a superstar.
    As a lawyer and a Michael’s fan since I was a child,these two cases do not go out of my head.
    Or projct is just beginning, we are looking for a serious jornalis to producer it.
    There’s another like our, do you know, like a Willima Wagner’s project.
    .
    Or love for Michael can get everything.

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  41. lcpledwards permalink
    July 3, 2011 12:07 am

    @ Daniela
    Yes, you can translate our posts and use them on your blog. I’m glad to see that you’re a lawyer! MJ’s fans consist of educated people from many professions! I’ve met MJ fans who are doctors, lawyers, engineers, journalists, writers, accountants, etc. Your legal skills will be a great asset to you once you begin your research.

    Why don’t you send us an email via the Contact Us form, and we can talk about your proposed documentary? Thanks!

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  42. July 2, 2011 8:58 pm

    “I do not know if you’re a lawyer or an investigator, but if not, you could be a good one’.

    Daniela, I’m no lawyer and no investigator – just a researcher with a science-oriented mind. But you are right – when this online investigation started I suddenly found that research and investigation were not that far from each other. Both need much attention to detail and a good deal of thinking.

    “I am Brazilian and would like to translate your articles into my language and use them on my blog, if you agree, of course I’ll give credit.”

    Sure you can translate them with a reference to our blog! The whole idea of the blog is spreading the truth about Michael – so all those who take this information further are also part of the vindication team.

    “We want to do a documentary and produce a film about the Chandler and Arvisos cases, telling the story honestly, as all the details that the media missed. We need support. Can we count on you?”

    I don’t know how I can help but if I will try to do my best. Please remember that our David is a much better expert on the Arvizos – I consider the case so ridiculous that refuse to talk about it seriously. I wish you every success with the documentary.

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  43. July 2, 2011 7:46 pm

    Helena, I consider this blog excelent.
    There is a huge amount of valuable information and his observations are very intelligent. I am a lawyer and I am also attentive to details, I do not know if you’re a lawyer or an investigator, but if not, you could be a good one.
    I am Brazilian and would like to translate your articles into my language and use them on my blog, if you agree, of course I’ll give credit.
    By the way, I would like to talk to you about a project that we have and what motivated the creation of the blog to which I referred. We want to be a documentary and produced a film about the Chandler and Arvisos cases, telling the story honestly, as all the details that the media missed. We need support. Can we count on you?

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  44. June 24, 2011 8:50 pm

    As we are dicussing Michael here, let me add some bits of info:He had
    a crush on his 1.st(?) gradeschool teacher in Gary ,Indiana and brought her gifts ie. he took some of his mothers jewellery,(later returned),he was also taken by Diana Ross at 10 or 11 yo, and at age 12y he asked his classmate, Joanelle Romano to”go steady”,she however moved to New
    Mexico, so it did not materialise.

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  45. June 24, 2011 1:34 pm

    “That’s all.”

    I know.

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  46. Suzy permalink
    June 24, 2011 10:25 am

    @ Helena

    I don’t want to open a can of worms here either, because this subject is unrelated to the general subject of this blog. I just saw AutisticOne and I wanted to tell him that I was sorry about my former ignorance and judgmentalness. I’m not talking about anybody else but myself. I feel that my former opinion was based on ignorance and judmentalness and I felt the need to apologize to AutisticOne for that. That’s all.

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  47. June 24, 2011 8:53 am

    “I totally understand now what you are talking about. I’m sorry for being judgmental the first time”.

    Suzy, it will probably surprise you but I also totally understand what Autistic is talking about. And it would be a terribly perfunctory thing to say that all this talk is about being or not being judgmental – this way we are doing only more harm to people who didn’t make this choice by themselves. No, it wasn’t their choice – it is only that human sexuality is so sensitive a subject that it is possible to get sexually stuck even on a woolen sock (proven fact) if some corresponding circumstances or influence from third parties has taken place and just at the right time.

    I will say no more on the subject as I promised to. All I ask of you and others is not to think that it is a primitive subject – no one knows how a human sexuality forms, whatever it is, but instead of doing proper research in this matter people prefer labeling it “judgmental” thus blocking even a possibility of reaching for the truth there.

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  48. Suzy permalink
    June 24, 2011 3:32 am

    @ AutisticOne

    I’d like to tell you that since the last time we have talked here I have changed my views about homosexuality and I totally understand now what you are talking about. I’m sorry for being judgmental the first time.

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  49. lynande51 permalink
    June 24, 2011 12:15 am

    Yes it was from the Neverland Five lawsuit.They had the lawsuit ready to file on December 2nd 1994 but had to wait until the tabloids bought some of their stories to file.it was February of 1995. THe lawsuit was won by Michael thanks to Bob Sange in June of 1998. It was the longest civil trial in Santa Barbara County.

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  50. June 23, 2011 11:43 pm

    Okay, then it seems we have buried the hatchet.

    I am sorry – I will have to leave now as it is 3 am here. Why I was staying awake for so long was a question I couldn’t find an answer to. There was a deposition made by Michael Jackson in March 1996 which was conveniently released by a British tabloid immediately after Michael’s death (at the beginning of July 2009). I would like to comment on it, but cannot find the reason why Michael was deposed. Some say that it was during the suit filed by the “Neverland Five” – but does it mean that the suit which started sometime in 1994 lasted until March 1996? On the other hand I remember Tom Mesereau saying that it was long…

    I will be really grateful if someone finds an answer to this question. We really need to look into that deposition (among a thousand other things to do) as it was analyzed by some professional “truth wizard” who made so superficial and biased an analysis that it is absolutely shocking. However for us to be able to discuss it we need to know the background for that deposition inside out. By the way it was heavily redacted too.

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  51. AutisticOne permalink
    June 23, 2011 11:23 pm

    Agreed.

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  52. June 23, 2011 11:15 pm

    “I will no longer discuss it as long as you are as well.”

    I won’t either, as long as the topic discussed will not require me to cover Michael’s views on this issue. Agreed?

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  53. AutisticOne permalink
    June 23, 2011 11:07 pm

    My pleasure. I will no longer discuss it as long as you are as well.

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  54. June 23, 2011 11:02 pm

    “However, please refrain from airing your personal feelings about homosexuality. As you said, it is totally unrelated to the subject of vindicating Michael.”

    Autistic, I will gladly refrain from it if I am not constantly forced to discuss this subject again and again.

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  55. AutisticOne permalink
    June 23, 2011 10:57 pm

    Actually, the main reason I am reading this site in the first place is to indeed read your vindicating blog entries of Michael, which I have no problems with. That is why I never raised an issue with such.

    What I do have problems with are your ignorant and prejudiced feelings about homosexuality. Let me remind you that the reason I first corresponded with you at all was because you filled up the comments sections of two of your blog entries with completely inaccurate, unrealistic, and misleading statements about such. I corresponded with you in an effort to combat those statements.

    As I said, I am all for Michael’s support as well, but you have taken it upon yourself to air your personal feelings about a totally unrelated subject on several occasions. I then took it upon myself to combat such.

    Please keep up the good work in your efforts to vindicate Michael; I’m all for it. However, please refrain from airing your personal feelings about homosexuality. As you said, it is totally unrelated to the subject of vindicating Michael.

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  56. June 23, 2011 10:36 pm

    “The fact of the matter is that you are dangerously in denial of reality. The sooner you accept that, the better you will feel about me and, most importantly, yourself.”

    Autistic, I have to remind you that we are not discussing homosexuality here at all. We are discussing Michael Jackson and his innocence here. And as regards Michael Jackson he explained his attitude towards Marc Schaffel’s involvement in making gay films in a very simple way – he simply said that it was not his agenda (same as it isn’t mine).

    Please see a piece of Michael’s deposition in 2006 (the year 1996 is a mistake made by the author, as the video itself carries a different date):

    Michael Jackson: “It was something not appropriate with what I was projecting, with my work. We just didn’t match. You know that…”

    Same as Marc Schaffel’s agenda did not match with Michael Jackson’s, my agenda is probably not matching with yours. Or rather our agendas match only if you are ready to vindicate Michael. But it seems that you come here solely for the reason to talk about your feelings about homosexuality as I don’t remember you saying a word of support in respect of Michael Jackson.

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  57. AutisticOne permalink
    June 23, 2011 10:11 pm

    Yes, VindicateMJ, feeling sorry for me is a crime in this case because you are laboring under a serious and dangerous misconception. Because of that, your pity is ill-placed and very offensive to me.

    I am not ill, sick, or otherwise, nor did I choose to be gay. I was made this way by God for a reason. I realized this in my *heart*, not by following my dangerously unrealistic religion or reading about it in the Bible. Following my religion nearly destroyed me. Looking inside my heart and finding the answers within is what truly made me feel better. As Jesus himself said, “The truth will set you free.” You cannot find the truth about yourself in some 2,000-year-old book of fairy tales; you can only find it within yourself.

    The fact of the matter is that you are dangerously in denial of reality. The sooner you accept that, the better you will feel about me and, most importantly, yourself.

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  58. June 23, 2011 10:01 pm

    “I am happy being who I am”

    Autistic, it is good that you feel happy about it. Unfortunately I cannot as I feel sorry for you. Is feeling sorry for some people a crime?

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  59. AutisticOne permalink
    June 23, 2011 6:02 pm

    Thank you Daniela. I truly appreciate your support and understanding.

    You’re absolutely correct: homosexuality has absolutely nothing to do with pedophilia. I for one am vehemently against grown men taking advantage of innocent children and I would hurt such people if I ever witnessed such a crime.

    Unfortunately, yes, there are many people out there in the world today who still think that homosexuality is either a choice or a behavior that is catching or learned, not to mention a mental illness. They are prejudiced and ignorant, as well as dangerously out of touch with the true reality of human sexuality and development. As for it being considered a moral virus, perhaps they should look in the mirror when making such a statement (or better yet, people who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones).

    The truth is that homophobia and intolerance are the true moral viruses because such is harmful to people’s self worth and self esteem. If you inundate people with such intolerance, they will look down on themselves. They are in effect taking away our rights to be happy with who we were born to be, at both the emotional level and at the legal level. This kind of intolerance is what breeds violence against us gays.

    I am happy being who I am and I intend to help fight for the rights of those who are like me. I’ve said it before: the more they keep us locked in the closet, the harder we will fight to break out. We gays are not out to take away the rights of anyone.

    Thank you once again for your kindness. May God bless you.

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  60. June 15, 2011 2:08 am

    AutisticOne, I want say to you that I understand you, and I agree wiht you. I have a lot of friends who are gays and they founded that they were gays since they were children. Be homesexual not mean be a child molester. no one needs be educated to be gay, just born this way. Haw a lawyer a fight for rights of gays, like get marry and adopt children. Like a Michael fan I repudiate all kinf of prejudice and ignorance. Michael was not gay, but they, for sure, din’t hava prejudice against them.
    Homosexuality is not a ill, is not a moral virus, of course not ! I am shocked to read something like that.
    Are the
    re someone in the world that still thing this way ?!
    Be haapy, boy , the way you are.

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  61. AutisticOne permalink
    November 9, 2010 8:25 pm

    By the way, I want to sincerely apologize for my animosity. I am very defensive about my sexual orientation due to the traumas I’ve suffered, not to mention the intolerance currently shown to us gays.

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  62. AutisticOne permalink
    November 9, 2010 8:20 pm

    Recovery? Ill?

    First of all, you need to stop viewing me as ill. I cannot be “cured” or “recover” because I am not ill in the first place. I’ve given you all of the facts about my life and you still refuse to accept it as reality. I f I was indeed ill with something, I would most definitely want to be cured and recover, but the fact of the matter is that I am not ill and never was, except with severe depression and anxiety.

    The only disorder I have is Asperger Syndrome, which is not psychological, but neurological (my brain is rewired neurologically). That is what is responsible for my depression and anxiety. And it is not something that you can recover from. I am that way for life.

    Secondly, I do not have a hormonal imbalance. I will not go into the gory details of my private life, but I can assure you that my attraction to men is not the result of a hormonal imbalance. There is no shortage of testosterone in me. I just happen to be attracted to men.

    I can appreciate your attempt to feel compassion for me, but you’re going about it the wrong way. Instead of feeling sorry for my being gay, you should feel sorry for all of the trauma and heartache I suffered as a youngster.

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  63. November 9, 2010 7:49 pm

    “Belittling others and teaching people to hate them.. Ignorance breeds intolerance and hatred, which leads to suffering for those who are hated.”

    Autistic one, dear, I don’t hate you and don’t teach anyone to do that. However I have a clear impression that it’s me and my approach to this matter which evoke much hatred on your part. It is just some grave misunderstanding between us.

    I’ve always told you that I look upon homosexual people as those lacking some hormones, or having some psychological disorders (which many people have and there is nothing to be offended about) or those who have had some unfortunate experience in life which changed the natural course of their sexual development – so for me it is a disorder or illness the roots of which still need to be studied. And you don’t hate those who are ill – you feel sympathy and compassion for them. And you wish them recovery – which is what I am wishing to you.

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  64. AutisticOne permalink
    November 9, 2010 6:20 pm

    Wow Helena, quite the turnaround. I guess you’ve been living so long in your own world that you can no longer handle the facts of reality.

    Because of that, this will be my last post here, but I wish to close with some food for thought.

    Homosexuality is not a psychological or moral virus. As a matter of fact, I take offense to your assertion. Your ignorance is the moral and psychological virus, my dear. Belittling others and teaching people to hate them based on an archaic and outdated belief system, be it Christian, Catholic, or Zoroastrianistic, is what is truly immoral. Ignorance breeds intolerance and hatred, which leads to suffering for those who are hated.

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  65. Suzy permalink
    November 4, 2010 6:04 pm

    @ Helena

    Like you said, I wouldn’t give any credit to anything Gutierrez claims and I will definitely take Ricky Martin’s word over his about whether he was or wasn’t sexually abused as a child. And we all know VG is lying about the Michael part. At least in the book he doesn’t claim Michael sexually abused Ricky, although I think even the part about the Ricky Martin picture found in Michael’s home is a lie. I have browsed the lists of the police’s findings and I don’t remember a Ricky Martin pic mentioned. There were 3T pics, for example (Michael’s nephews), but no Ricky Martin.

    Wouldn’t that have been all over in the media had it been true? Just like the media had an obsession with the Macaulay Culkin portrait that was found (I guess because Mac was famous too), I assume the media would have had a field day with a Ricky Martin picture as well, if it had been true.

    BTW, I remember that when Ricky Martin came out someone mentioned on a MJ fan board that VG was on TV in Chile claiming, he knew this because Michael sexually abused Martin as a child. So here, he already claimed MJ abused Martin – even though in his book he admits they didn’t even know each other (apart from later meeting as adults when Martin was in the “What more can I give?” project together with other stars, of course). If I remember well also the childhood Ricky Martin picture that allegedly was found in Michael’s possession now was suddenly a nude photo….

    VG is a p-le, I have no doubt about that now and he is obviously trying to link all these stories together somehow, but I don’t give credit to any claim he makes about this, because he obviously has an agenda. Poor Ricky maybe will have to watch his back, because who knows if he won’t be the next attempted NAMBLA poster boy now….

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  66. November 4, 2010 4:14 pm

    Autistic one, may I ask you not to flood the blog with posts about the gay issues? Firstly, the blog is dedicated to Michael Jackson who was not gay according to his own words and other people’s testimonies, and secondly, I will be away for a few days as we are having a holiday here, so I won’t be able to answer you (or anyone) on this or any other matter.

    Guys, I’m focusing now on Larry Feldman and hope to present to you a few pieces about him when David is finished with the seminar. David, I am very much looking forward to what the others said there, especially Thomas Mesereau!

    Now that I’m researching Larry Feldman I am sure more than ever that someone’s professionalism is only half the story – it is professionalism and human’s integrity and high ethics which make a person a truly whole.

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  67. November 4, 2010 3:17 pm

    “my psyche is bruised and scarred”
    “whether that is due to the neurological re-wiring of my brain (which is Asperger Syndrome) or something else, I’ll never know”

    Autistic one, I am sick and tired of this gay issue and am answering you only for the reasons quoted above.

    The article you provided about Ricky Martin does NOT prove to me that he was gay when he was five. The questions he was asked about him having girlfriends when he was in his preschool are firstly, absolutely crazy questions to ask, and secondly, I doubt that anyone can really remember what he or she was thinking when he was five years old. All these reflections are just a way to explain to oneself later that “I’ve always felt that way” which is not necessarily true.

    However Ricky doesn’t elaborate on other factors which might have taken place in his life, an indication to which is given by our old friend Victor Gutierrez in the Spanish version of his MJWML book to which he added a special chapter about Ricky Martin.

    It is truly surprising that whenever we have gay and p-le issues it is Victor Gutierrez who immediately pops up!

    In that article Victor Gutierrez says that the manager of Ricky Martin’s group was a p-le who sexually abused members of the group including Ricky. Knowing what VG is like all of this might be a COMPLETE LIE, however the fact that adult gays involving youngsters in sex inevitably turn them into gays is an established fact, and we don’t need Victor Gutierrez’s stories to prove it.

    In that story VG claims that there were photos of Ricky Martin found in Michael’s home (out of some journals) and that Ricky was involved in early sex with the manager of his group (evidently when he was a minor):

    “Amongst the photographs confiscated by the Police during the raid, the detectives found some of an unidentifiable Hispanic boy. Later they discovered that they were of the singer, and ex-member of the band Menudo, Ricky Martin. Who is now an actor on the North American soap opera “General Hospital”.

    In any case, the police knew that the then minor, never reached the point of knowing Jackson. In an interview with Ricky Martin, Martin was asked about the photographs found on Jackson ranch, he was surprised, ” When Jackson invited the group ‘Menudo’ for some photographs, I wasn’t a member of the group yet, when I did join the group I was fully aware that Jackson liked ‘Menudo’. But I never would have thought that this man would have kept photographs of me when I was a young boy. The Police have never contacted me, because I never knew Jackson.”

    The preoccupation of the Police over Ricky Martin was understandable, they knew of incidents involving this now young man of 22. The records show 2 incidents where he was a victim of sexual abuse by famous personalities. The first time Ricky Martin heard the phrase ” Sexual Abuse”, was when he was the new member of the group “Menudo”. The ex-photographer of the group, Bolivar Arellano, accused the Manager of the group, Edgardo Diaz, of being a pedophile. He accused him of sexually abusing various members of the group, one of them being Ricky.

    Even though charges were never filed, it was now recognized that there were problems in the group involving sex & drugs. Ricky states that he has never been aware of any such activities and claims, for the record that he no sexual abuse occurred between him & his ex-manager. Regardless, Bolivar Arellano, claims that he has seen Ricky Martin (when he was a young boy) & Diaz in the same bed. Ricky claims this to be the truth, they were in the same bed, but there was no sexual activity involved. “I don’t know about the other member of the group, he has never made any type of sexual advance towards me, add to that I’ve never seen him make any sexual advance towards the other members of the group either”.

    The other incident the Police have involving Ricky Martin, is the report that Ricky Martin was the sexual victim of Jose Menendez. Father of the brothers Menendez, who are now on trial for killing their parents. When Ricky was 12 years old, Jose Menedez was the president of RCA, Menudo’s record label.

    Even though Ricky finds it hard to remember Jose Menedez, he states that nothing happened between the two of them. “I was a kid & I met many people, but I really don’t remember this man much”, states Ricky. “When I saw his photograph in the press that he was murdered, his face looked familiar, and it was my assistant that told me that I knew the guy when he was President of RCA. But to say that I had any type of relationship with this man, and add to that, any type of abuse, I would remember that, I would definitely remember that, nothing like that ever happened”.

    In total there are 3 people the police believe abused Ricky involuntary: Jackson, Jose Menendez & his ex-manager. It’s difficult for Ricky to understand “I don’t know what it is about me that they involve me in the sexual abuse charges when I was a boy. It’s incredible that I’m involved in these stories. People sure do have a lot of imagination”, Ricky stated in a surprised manner”.

    I repeat that ALL OF THE ABOVE MAY BE A COMPLETE LIE – but Victor Gutierrez’s constant preoccupation with ped-le issues is growing more and more suspicious to me every day…

    As to gay issues let me point out again that there is no power on earth which will ever convince me that a five-year old boy can truly realize himself as a homosexual because children simply do not realize their sexual identity that early and it is only a big and adult gay man who can convince a small boy that it is the first sign of his ‘orientation’ if he looks at another boy’s penis and asks a question about it.

    As to your desire to help others I suggest you focus on the elderly for whom your theories about kid homosexuals are no longer harmful.

    Homosexuality is a virus and is contagious, but not in the meaning which people usually attach to it – sexual likings are such an intricate and subtle thing which have to do with a person’s psychology, that even a woolen sock (as specialists say) may become sexually attractive to someone if some circumstances come together at a certain moment in a person’s life, though you definitely cannot say that being attracted to a woolen sock is an inherent ‘orientation’ of a person.

    It is a psychological and even moral virus, if you like, and the more propaganda is made about it the more contagious it gets.

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  68. AutisticOne permalink
    November 3, 2010 8:37 pm

    Hello Helena. I wanted to share with you an article today about Latino singer Ricky Martin, who, as you may recall, came out as gay earlier this year. The article can be found here:
    http://www.celestrellas.com/2010/11/03/ricky-martin-oprah-today-show/?icid=maing%7Cmain5%7C2%7Clink1%7C23296

    In it, Ricky reveals that he had known he was attracted to the same sex since he was five years old. To quote: “I always felt attraction, I was four, five years old and I felt this chemistry. I was feeling something. The first day I went to school, when I came back the first thing they asked me was ‘Do you have girlfriends already? How many girlfriends do you have?’ and I was like ‘What? I don’t understand what you mean.’ I was five.”

    Contrary to what you believe, that homosexuality is “catching,” there is no evidence in this article to suggest that Ricky “caught” it from anyone. He came to that realization on his own, as did I.

    As I stated in my last post, I also have vivid memories of being attracted to my same-sex peers throughout my childhood and adolescense, but I forced myself to deny those feelings out of necessity and security, for fear of being rejected by my parents and bullied by my peers, so I adopted a homophobic view. I knew from an early age that it was unacceptable for males to bond in that way with each other, so I attempted to bond with my female peers, believing that it was the “right” thing to do. It wasn’t until the end of high school that I realized why I was unsuccessful in finding a girlfriend: I related more on an emotional and mental level with guys.

    To further quote Ricky: “People were mocking my sexuality and I was like ‘I don’t want to be that,’ Is that me? I totally want to reject myself…you know what? I think I hate myself’ That’s why, I must insist: when someone is not ready, we must not force that person to come out. Right now we are dealing people that are being bullied because they are gay, and are committing suicide because they’re forced to come out.”

    I understand exactly how he felt because I went through it too. I was suspected of being gay during my grade school years, which I vehemently denied because all I heard about homosexuality was negative word-of-mouth. I knew that if I let on that I was the tiniest bit attracted to my male peers that I would have succumbed to the pressure of their inevitable bullying and possibly attempted suicide at a young age. (I also knew that there was no support for gay and questioning youth at that time; luckily now, there is.) As it is, during grades 6 and 7, I was being so bullied by everyone who knew me in school that I developed my first suicidal thoughts. However, I never attempted to carry them out; looking back, I now realize that I was stronger than I thought.

    Nevertheless, because I did not receive any nurturing support for my homosexuality when I needed it most, my psyche is bruised and scarred. The only thing that helps me to cope is therapy, as well as my relationship with my fiancee. I want to do more, however, to make a difference for gay and questioning youth, so that they will not grow up hating themselves, as Ricky Martin and I did. I intend to become more active in that area by joining the Human Rights Campaign, as well as possibly volunteering at my local pride center.

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  69. AutisticOne permalink
    October 22, 2010 6:21 am

    Helena, thank you for your kind blessing. I know in my heart and mind that God loves me for who He made me to be. That is where I found what I believe is my true destiny: to adopt orphan children and raise them in a loving and caring household. They will not be “doomed” to be gay, as you believe. My fiancee and I will tell them that it is up to them to search within their heart and soul to decide which direction is most true to themselves. We will not impress upon them that it is imperative in any way to procreate. We will leave that decision in their hands, to be made at the right time in their life. We would not want them growing up under pressure, as my fiancee and I did.

    In terms of people’s beliefs that homosexuality is a choice, it is only a choice in the barest sense that they can choose to either ignore or be true to themselves. I (and millions of others, young and old) chose to be true to myself and to ignore the harmful beliefs with which I was indoctrinated. It was figuritively like pulling out a knife after being stabbed. If you pulled the knife out too quickly, you’d bleed to death. If you slowly and methodically removed it surgically, you would have a chance of survival.

    I will respectfully reiterate again that homosexuality is *not* a “virus” or a “psychological problem”, as you may have been led to believe over the years; telling gay youth that they have a “problem” will do more harm than good (they would most definitely want nothing more than to be true to themselves, and they should know that it is okay to do so). It is simply a difference in people’s psychosexual (and physical-sexual) make-up, but there is nothing inherently wrong with it. Some men are attracted to men, while some women are attracted to women, in the same way that someone is attracted to a certain flavor of ice cream, or a certain genre of music or movies, or sports, etc.

    It is also not contagious, as you so assert. I did not “catch” it from anyone. I realized very early on during my childhood in the 1980s, based on what I saw with my eyes, that men were supposed to be with women and vice-versa. I, however, have vivid memories of being attracted to my (same-aged) male peers at various stages of my life, knowing full well that it was considered “wrong.”

    Once I started hearing (negative) word-of-mouth about this thing called “homosexuality” (or being “gay”) at the beginning of the 1990s, I realized that I had found a label for my pre-existing feelings, but I felt that I could not come out because I would have not received the nurturing support I knew I needed, given the negative word-of-mouth all around. Because I did not receive that support during the window of opportunity that was puberty, my psychosexual development was stunted and my psyche remains scarred and voided because I did not fulfill my requisite developmental needs.

    To this day, I obsess over the fact that I had no release or outlet for the psychosexual tension caused by my raging hormones during puberty (except, excuse the gory details, for solo masturbation, which got boring after a while). I remain scarred for life because of this. I tried adopting the viewpoint that you shared with me, in that the time of the “raging storm” of hormones would have been the worst time for me to find an outlet, but I knew myself better than that. One thing that my numerous therapists over the years know about me is that I always seem to know exactly what I want. Whether that is due to the neurological re-wiring of my brain (which is Asperger Syndrome) or something else, I’ll never know, but I do know that I knew very much what I wanted as a teen.

    Out of necessity, I fell into denial of my true needs and adopted a homophobic point-of-view for the better part of the ’90s, simply to fit in with the rest of society and to appease my parents, until I turned 18 and realized that I could not hold it in much longer. Beginning with puberty, I looked at heterosexual pornography with the belief that it was the “right” thing to look at, hoping that I would grow into it, but the opposite was true. I craved pictures of naked men because I was curious about their bodies. It was then that I realized that I had no interest in forming an emotional or physical bond with females. At that age (and during puberty, which began at age 14), I had no desire to engage in heterosexual procreation of any kind, only a need to touch and explore the developing bodies of my fellow same-aged peers.

    I did not get to do that until ten years after I began puberty, at which time I was 25. Despite the fact that I am now in a stable, mutually faithful monogamous relationship (and engaged, to boot), I still obsess over the developmental needs that remain unfulfilled. (Luckily, my fiancee is very supportive and understanding of this.)

    I remember Madonna saying something to this effect during a concert after Michael died, which was, in fact, a reference to Michael. She said, “When you don’t get something you need, you obsess over it.” That is what Michael did to his dying day: he obsessed over the childhood he never had. In the same fashion, I obsess over the needs that went unfulfilled during puberty. Though the window of opportunity has been closed since puberty ended, I still look longingly into it, and will for the rest of my life.

    I and many other people want to advocate for gay and questioning teens to receive the support and nurturing they need most during their own windows of opportunity so that they do not grow up scarred and voided like me and many others. We know now that the spectrum of human sexuality is much more complex and multi-faceted than any religion would like you to believe. And we are the way we are for a reason. It is up to us to search within ourselves to find that reason.

    Again, thank you for your blessing and your invitation to me to stay and discuss my feelings.

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  70. October 21, 2010 9:42 pm

    I realized that I couldn’t leave without saying a few more things. I have as much right as you do to air my feelings.

    Autistic, you shouldn’t leave at all. I’ll be glad if you stay and talk to us.

    First of all, I’ve never heard of Zoroastrianism and I don’t think that I’d be willing to believe in it after what you’ve described it to be.

    Practically nobody heard of it but everyone celebrates one of its main holidays every December 25. Mitra’s birthday was so popular that Christians had to replace it with a Christmas holiday to erase the memory of Mitraism which was a later version of Zoroastrianism. Also the three Magi who came to greet the newborn Christ belonged to that religion. They came all the way from Persia to show their respect to the child that would take humans a step further – it was like passing the keys to the world’s most sacred wisdom. By the way the main feature of Zoroaster followers was that they never lied. The first world historian Hippocrates visited ancient Persia and was amazed that the whole nation considered a lie to be the most distressful thing ever.

    … to address your assertion that you do not believe in “gay kids,” have you ever heard of “The Trevor Project”? It is an organization in America that provides round-the-clock support for gay and questioning youth. It was started by the filmmakers of the 1994 short film “Trevor,” about a teenaged boy who realizes he is gay upon beginning puberty. He was ostracized and bullied by his peers, to the point of attempting suicide. Luckily, his attempt failed and he received much-needed support. You can find more information about it here: http://www.thetrevorproject.org/

    It is good that there is an organization in American which can provide psychological help to young people questioning their sexuality. However help may be different – if they prevent them from suicides, that’s one thing, but if they encourage them to be gays, that’s a different matter.

    Given the recent spate of teen suicides this past month, it appears that the Trevor Project is just not enough. Ignorance and hatred is winning over everyone. What needs to be done to curb these suicides is complete acceptance and education of homosexuality as a natural sexual orientation/preference, especially for those who identify as such as teenagers. If gay and questioning teens do not receive the support they need during the window of opportunity that is puberty, they will grow up permanently and irrevocably damaged by the word-of-mouth, intolerance, and beliefs they are exposed to, as I was. They will be cleaning up society’s mess for the rest of their lives, as I am.

    In matters of homosexuality there is no place for hatred. IMHO the first thing to do is to calm down and stop the hysteria about it. From what I have seen in this matter gay men are partially to blame for it because they attack everyone who does as little as just shrugging his shoulders. You feel that you are allowed to speak of it well only or you don’t speak about it at all. This type of an attitude is drawing fire on gays – I always felt compassion for young men with all their troubles until people started attacking me here and this is what really made me angry (and say more than I initially wanted to).
    If everyone calms down people will be able to sort out a few things, one of which is that the concept of ‘gay kids’ is partially a nonsense – partially, because there might be some hormone changes in the body which will eventually produce a gay effect (nobody knows anything for sure yet). However the main reason for homosexuality is the social environment – people you associate with, matters you discuss, contacts you have, examples of behavior you see, etc. Therefore the role of older gays becomes critical here and if they impose themselves on a younger generation I’ll be the first to hate them and burn them on fire.

    I still battle the after-effects of the word-of-mouth and harmful beliefs that I endured during puberty (and I was lucky for not coming out until after I graduated high school); part of my psyche still wants to believe that it is wrong to be gay. However, I cannot give in to that, otherwise I may become severely depressed and attempt suicide again. I need to fight for what I believe is being true to myself. And I intend to fight for the rights of others like me, young and old.

    I think you should stop thinking of it as ‘wrong’. At the moment you just can’t help it because some psychological patterns have already formed. But these patterns can be changed.

    Both the American Psychiatric Association and the American Psychological Association have long maintained their belief that homosexuality is not a mental illness that needs to be cured, but is instead a natural sexual orientation that needs nurturing and support, as natural as someone’s preference for a certain type of music, color, food flavor, or whatever.

    It may not be a mental illness, but it is a psychological problem which is contagious. It is a ‘virus’.

    True, we gays cannot procreate with our same-sex partners, but I think that is all for the better. I believe that we were instead meant to adopt and give homes to less fortunate orphan children. If we were meant to procreate, we would have been attracted to people of the opposite sex, but the fact of the matter is that we are not. And once again, we did not choose to be this way.

    Children in gay families are doomed to become gays too because they will absorb the same problems and perception of sex and gender. It will be a completely one-sided type of education.

    Thank you once again for providing me with a forum in which to air my feelings. I don’t expect to change your beliefs, but I do hope that you will learn to stop treating homosexuality as a tragedy. Murder is a tragedy. Child mlestation and rape are tragedies. Theft is a tragedy. It is *not* a tragedy when two people of the same sex fall in love with one another.

    I agree – it is not and shouldn’t be a tragedy for the man himself but it may be a tragedy for his parents who hoped for a different future for their son. However a loving parent will always accept his child with all the choices he is making. The matter turns into a tragedy when the boy commits a suicide because of these issues. In order to avoid all that everyone should calm down first and then 1) accept things which cannot be changed, 2) give a chance of psychological help to those who want it to be changed and 3) never encourage homosexuality or impose it on anyone by creating a specific social environment (for ex, male schools or propaganda of same sex) thus giving a chance to young people to develop their sexuality in a natural way.

    God bless you, dear.

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  71. AutisticOne permalink
    October 21, 2010 4:10 am

    Helena, I know I said we should just agree to disagree, but since you’ve given me a forum on your site to further discuss this issue with you, I realized that I couldn’t leave without saying a few more things. I have as much right as you do to air my feelings.

    First of all, I’ve never heard of Zoroastrianism and I don’t think that I’d be willing to believe in it after what you’ve described it to be. That was then and this is now, and we know much more about the spectrum of human sexuality than ever before, thanks to science and intellect. Adhering to and enforcing such an archaic and antiquated belief system is dangerous and harmful.

    Secondly, I remember you saying in one of your e-mails to me that one or more of the links I sent you would not open. For your convenience, I will post them again here:

    http://www.advocate.com/News/Daily_News/2010/09/28/Antigay_Bullying_Prompts_Houston_Suicide//

    http://abcnews.go.com/US/victim-secret-dorm-sex-tape-commits-suicide/story?id=11758716

    Thirdly, to address your assertion that you do not believe in “gay kids,” have you ever heard of “The Trevor Project”? It is an organization in America that provides round-the-clock support for gay and questioning youth. It was started by the filmmakers of the 1994 short film “Trevor,” about a teenaged boy who realizes he is gay upon beginning puberty. He was ostracized and bullied by his peers, to the point of attempting suicide. Luckily, his attempt failed and he received much-needed support. You can find more information about it here: http://www.thetrevorproject.org/

    Given the recent spate of teen suicides this past month, it appears that the Trevor Project is just not enough. Ignorance and hatred is winning over everyone. What needs to be done to curb these suicides is complete acceptance and education of homosexuality as a natural sexual orientation/preference, especially for those who identify as such as teenagers. If gay and questioning teens do not receive the support they need during the window of opportunity that is puberty, they will grow up permanently and irrevocably damaged by the word-of-mouth, intolerance, and beliefs they are exposed to, as I was. They will be cleaning up society’s mess for the rest of their lives, as I am.

    I still battle the after-effects of the word-of-mouth and harmful beliefs that I endured during puberty (and I was lucky for not coming out until after I graduated high school); part of my psyche still wants to believe that it is wrong to be gay. However, I cannot give in to that, otherwise I may become severely depressed and attempt suicide again. I need to fight for what I believe is being true to myself. And I intend to fight for the rights of others like me, young and old.

    The reason why your last e-mail put me into a state of depression is that it reinforced all over again the beliefs that I was indoctrinated with as a teen/adolescent. I remembered the feelings I had of being coerced against my will into adhering to a belief system that I did not agree with, not to mention the negative word-of-mouth about homosexuality that I heard from my peers and my father. I was also depressed due to the notion that countless gay youth have it much worse than I did and that there was nothing I could do to help them. But now there is something I can do; I can volunteer at my local pride center, not to mention vote for the better candidates.

    The fact of the matter is that you and countless millions of others are so hung up on your archaic belief systems (be it Zoroastrianistic, Christian, Catholic, or whatever) that you are not aware of the very real problems that are going on around you, nor the people that you are hurting in the process.

    Both the American Psychiatric Association and the American Psychological Association have long maintained their belief that homosexuality is not a mental illness that needs to be cured, but is instead a natural sexual orientation that needs nurturing and support, as natural as someone’s preference for a certain type of music, color, food flavor, or whatever.

    True, we gays cannot procreate with our same-sex partners, but I think that is all for the better. I believe that we were instead meant to adopt and give homes to less fortunate orphan children. If we were meant to procreate, we would have been attracted to people of the opposite sex, but the fact of the matter is that we are not. And once again, we did not choose to be this way.

    Thank you once again for providing me with a forum in which to air my feelings. I don’t expect to change your beliefs, but I do hope that you will learn to stop treating homosexuality as a tragedy.

    Murder is a tragedy. Child mlestation and rape are tragedies. Theft is a tragedy. It is *not* a tragedy when two people of the same sex fall in love with one another.

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  72. AutisticOne permalink
    October 18, 2010 5:57 pm

    Thank you, Helena, for taking the time to fully understand me. However, I believe that we should just agree to disagree. You are entitled to your beliefs and I am entitled to be true to myself. Instead of bombarding you with anger and animosity, I will channel my feelings into positive and helpful ways of helping the people of my orientation.

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  73. October 13, 2010 12:43 pm

    Guys, sorry for my long silence. It is due to the fact that I’ve been thinking what to do about some issues which on the one hand cannot be left unattended, but on the other hand shouldn’t be mixed up with Michael’s vindication. On still another hand judging by how Michael behaved and what he said spiritual problems were probably constantly on his mind so mentioning some of them here are well within what he would expect us to do.

    As a result I decided to open a page of my own where I can deal with all controversial issues. If you are interested please have a look.

    It is only after taking this step (which is crucial for me) that I will read in more detail the superb work done by Lynette in her latest post and all the comments for the past few days.

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